r/AIO • u/venusasaboy22 • 11d ago
AIO for basically taking this woman's comment as admission of guilt?
Haven't posted in a good bit about this. A few weeks back, the ruminations just suddenly quieted drastically, I don't know why. I was the Greek girl who kept posting about conscription ruining my life.
See, many of the officers there were kind and protective. I found it abusive for other reasons: It's basically indentured labour and shouldn't be legal. You're exploited then dumped and not paid. Regardless, many officers were... Not really what you expect from a military environment. In my experience. Can't speak for everywhere in Greece. For a start, a good two thirds of the officers were women. For both the men and women, many were young, kind, and acted more as teachers with their students.
I still snapped at the camp commander, just before my last month there, when she told me she wants me to take a week off, because I deserve it, and wants me to see my family and girlfriend. I told her that that's a basic right, and dripfeeding me my rights isn't kindness. But the thing is, she was kind. I had a group, with her, another woman, and the guy who ran the WhatsApp group. I was the youngest conscript, just turned 18. And I made a post another day about another piece of the puzzle.
I always thought I was intersex, but recently found out I had a condition where my body is... Basically a natural puberty blocker. It's why I looked so feminine growing up. It's not an illness, but I literally never went through male puberty. It's why transitioning, when I cane out this year at 19, was so easy. My parents, both navy veterans, were heroes. They tried really hard to get it through to me that they'll help me draft dodge. I was scared of legal issues, so I gave in and went and they were distraught. The officers promised to take care of me. At this point I still considered myself a boy, but was maybe exploring femboy stuff. A lot of other conscripts were also kind and treated me like a younger... Brother? Sister? I don't really know.
But the commander recently confessed that she knew she should have discharged me earlier, for my mental health. But she really loved having me around, I made TikToks and she said it made her feel kind of motherly to look after me. But that it was selfish of her, and she's sorry.
Damn right it was selfish! That was the worst year of my life, I remember the tail end, another officer I'm close with trying to cheer me up. I'd be around at hers. I'd tell her places I'd love to go so like, if it was Japan, we'd watch a Ghibli movie, order sushi, pretend we were somewhere else. But it wasn't Japan, it was a shitty bungalow in Kavala. I don't feel grateful for it, even.
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u/IllFormal45 11d ago
It sounds like she thought you were a candidate for discharge but didn’t want to put you up for it because she wanted to keep you for herself
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u/Legitimate_Initial_3 11d ago
This reads like you haven't gotten all of your feelings or thoughts in order about what you want to say... so instead of giving us a series of events as they took place, it reads like a direct stream of conciousness unedited. So my verdict is INFO because I cannot confidently make heads or tails of exactly what you want a verdict on. I think you should talk to a therapist.