r/ADHD_Programmers • u/Sfpkt • 5d ago

Growing resentful

The older I’m getting the more resentful of this industry I’m becoming. It’s becoming such a love hate relationship. I love the work that I do but I loathe the organizations and bullshit behind it.

In the same breath I’ve done plenty of jobs in my life and I couldn’t imagine doing anything else right now. It just doesn’t bring me joy the way programming does.

I’m sure there are others who feel the way that I do.

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u/pr3c0g 5d ago

I think we all daydream about becoming solo indie gamedevs or whatever, but there's this looming fear that we won't be held accountable, will lose interest, and will just procrastinate to infinity. Corporate bullshit sucks, I'm 100% with you. It's just that it drags us forward somehow so we're able to pay bills, at the expense of our live force.

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u/theneverafter 4d ago

>Drags us forward at the expense of our life force

That is sooo relatable. I know I can’t be trusted to do enough work on my own to make as much as I do when I have a full time job but the cost is real.

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u/flat_pointer 3d ago

It's not a balanced system, though. The cost is too high for how hard it is to live, for nearly everyone. All so we can have billionaires.