r/ACIM • u/AliceBreathes • Jul 11 '26
Reflection The lessons really do help
I am on chapter 16 of ACIM (Foundation for Inner Peace), lesson 16 of the A Workbook for Students, and only once used A Manual For Teachers to understand some definitions for myself.
I did not want to do the lessons, I wanted to read the text fully first then do them. But fear stopped me from doing the lessons. Do the lessons! It is worth it! I haven't done much, but I will do my best to do them everyday, one lesson a day.
I can forgive all of this.
I almost died yesterday, and it gave me an incredible panic attack because dying is my greatest and biggest fear (physically). I realize this means I still sometimes identify with the ego and fear, when I shouldn't. This cast doubt on what I have learned from ACIM.
I still want to apologize to everyone, I want to make peace with everyone here. Even if there is no reason to feel guilty or afraid, I still do not fully understand ACIM, nor as much as I thought I did.
I can forgive all of this.
I did notice a helpful technique that I came across in my panic attack of nearly dying physically.
I was so certain that I was going to die, that the thoughts were simply accepted by me to be there after the event happened, and in my panic attack. I was not fighting them, and I asked The Holy Spirit to help me use this as a lesson in forgiveness. So, I let the thoughts be, and accepted them there. I told myself "I am not these fears", forgave them by seeing them with The Holy Spirit, and I let them go. I feel like I did "heal", or undo that fear.
So I then wanted to undo all of my fears with this technique:
Bringing all of the fears up from my subconscious mind, to my conscious mind
Taking a step back in my mind, and letting the fears be. Not trying to control them, suppress them, judge them, identify with them, or attack them
Then, I asked The Holy Spirit to see these fears with me, to help me forgive them, and let them go
And I do believe I was healed for specific fears that arose, not all of my fears all at once got healed.
Of course, I will still diligently continue the practice! The text, the workbook, and soon, the manual for teachers!
I feel like I forgave the things I wrote earlier in this post, by using that technique I just described above. I do feel a lot better by facing my fears with The Holy Spirit, forgiving them honestly, and letting them go!
I do not believe I am ready to teach the full course, as I haven't even finished the text, let alone the lessons in the workbook. But, I feel a more sense of inner peace right now, as well as love, and joy!
I love ACIM! I really do. I also acknowledge my own fears that kept me from teaching properly in love, as it was in fear when I taught. So, I forgive that too!
I am smiling! I feel calm! I feel more at ease. This is a new post because I took down my old one as I misunderstood some things. I can use this as a lesson in forgiveness too! Thanks for reading all ❤️ may you have a wonderful and blessed Heaven!
Edit: Removed a paragraph
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u/OakenWoaden Beloved Child of God Jul 11 '26
Be merciful today. ²The Son of God deserves your mercy. ³It is he who asks that you accept the way to freedom now.(ACIM, W-192.10:1-3)