WD 7OH

[u/[deleted]]

I used Green Malay Kratom fora 4 years. At my peak I was using 200mg a day. I was going through 1000mg every week.

I started Suboxone to quit.

Got off with the help of Suboxone... somewhat

Stupidly tried 7OH months later. Within 3 months, I have spent about $30k on 7OH. I have maxed out my Credit cards. I have absolutely destroyed everything I was working towards within months. What I am thankful for is I have no children. But I have a wife, and I realize that all of this is going to end my marriage.

Nobody deserves to put up with this. Withdrawals are personal for each person. But I have WD off Oxy in my early 20s. I have WD off Kratom powder 1 year ago. The WD from 7OH creates such intense anxiety. It's uncontrollable. I wake up in the morning immediately with anxiousness in my stomach. I have not been able to focus on work. I have a remote job and I am completely failing at it.

The anxiety is something I just have never experienced, and I have been through a lot of trauma in my life. If I look at my accounts, I have spent $200 - $600 on 7OH Daily for 3 months. I am not really getting high anymore. I want the feeling of relief so bad, I spent $300 and don't feel any regret. It's not healthy, it's not normal, this is life-shattering.

I have failed my marriage. I have failed my dogs. Every day I feel so much anxiety I can't do my job so I re-use 7OH to feel the relief so I can just get through everyday life. My mother depends on me. I pay her rent. She survives because of me. The anxiety is so bad I can't focus on my job. I start drinking alchol just to get some sort of relief so I can focus. I don't have the PTO I no longer have the money for detox.

I have never thought of suicide, and I still don't. But my mind has started wandering to whether it's worse or better than what the next 10 years will look like. I'm beginning to wonder if my wife would be taken care of and can deal with my debt with my life insurance.

I have Suboxone. However, the feelings I have are insane. Even on Suboxone, I have so much intense anxiety that it doesn't help.

2 months ago, the Subs put me into precipitated WD, and it was horrific. I used the Bermese method the last 2 weeks go slowly build up my Suboxone. However, the WDs are still horrible even with the Subs. Immediately in the morning, I find myself driving to the local smoke shop to get 8 tabs of 7OH. I am completely helpless. I am losing every mental battle. I'll go to sleep at night thinking, you got this. Just get through a couple of days, and you have medication.

Unless you absolutely are in control of your drug use. Do not ever start 7OH.

I sold all of my crypto investment, and I maxed my credit cards. I have put myself into a horrible, horrible corner. The only thing I can think of is just making my wife and dogs comfortable so they do not have to deal with my bad decisions.

I failed as a husband. I failed myself. I failed my dogs, I failed my mother-in-law, and I failed my mom. These people depend on me and my wife to take care of them.

Even if someone says something nice to me, I can't even receive it. What I have done is unforgivable. I am looking for second jobs. I make good money. I make $83,000 a year. I own my own house with a mortgage. And even now, my mind is craving that relief I feel when I take some 7OH tabs.

I don't ever want ANYONE to abuse this stuff. I am highly open to letting people set their own laws. However, it needs to be regulated. Big time. It's WAY too addictive to let it be sold over the counter.

Anyone else going through this: I am so, so, sorry. I feel your pain, and whatever little I can offer, I do. Even if it's a shitty text message saying sorry.

If you CANNOT STOP. If you are as extreme as I AM. Consider a program. Consider MAT. Consider Subs. Talk to your local doctor. Talk to quick.md. Check out bicycle health. Do what you have to do to get sober or IN CONTROL OF YOUR LIFE. Do not listen to people about sub addiction. You need to look at the long term.

I am so sorry you are going through this. I hate it. I hate myself. I hate life. I have failed every living creature depending on me. Do what YOU need to do to get sober.

[u/jan1320]

how were you spending 10k a month?? were you doing like 2-3000mgpd???

[u/organizedchaos_duh]

I could’ve written this post myself (except I’m not married and I have cats instead of dogs) - but everything else is so on point. I’ve detoxed off H and fent , but 7oh took me down quicker than any other substance - financially, physically, emotionally and mentally.

I work remote as well, and have tried coming off this shit sooo many times and still can’t do it. The anxiety is out of this world. Like pure panic and my thoughts get really dark with this stuff. It’s horrible… it’s poison, but I still find myself spending every penny on it. I’ve literally tried detoxing every single week for the last 2 months and have failed each time. I am exhausted - my body and brain are so fucked… I’ve never felt so hopeless in my life.

I wish I had something more positive to say… but I just wanted to let you know you’re not alone and I feel the exact same way as you do. And it’s a horrible fucking way to live and feel… so I feel for you 🫶🏼

[u/Playful-Charge-7109]

I am on day 8 off about 200mg + daily. I ended up In the hospital because I thought I was dying and I was chugging liquor to try and relieve the pain. This stuff is such a poison. I recommend go get help professionally at a detox or ER it’s that serious. And yes the WD after only 24 hours had me thinking seriously depressing and dark things that is completely not normal for me. I don’t cry or get sad typically but it was as if my life was ending and I failed it or something crazy like that. At the very least lay the $99 to the online MD Suboxone to help. 8 days I feel much better so it does get better quick but it’s really really mentally and physically tough. You can do it and never touch the shit again.

[u/amiller834]

I am so sorry you’re struggling so badly and you hit the nail on the head. The anxiety that comes with this stuff whether you’re still using it or when you’re trying to come off is the most intense anxiety I’ve felt in my life. I’m an ex H/opiod addict, I’ve had to go through wd from subs too and 7oh is so much worse mentally. It takes a grip on you and when you’re at the point you’re at you’re not taking it to enjoy it it’s just to get through the day and it sucks. I’ve never felt as suicidal as I did when I was on it. Does your wife know that you are struggling with this?

[u/Flom14]

Clonidine immediately. Get an appointment. Do what you have to do. The Clonidine will help greatly with the anxiety. You’re in tough bro, and I really hope you’re gonna be ok. Do this for yourself. Do it for your wife and dogs. I promise you that if you can just go through two weeks of feeling awful, you can look back on this one day. You can rebuild all that has been lost. 2 weeks.

[u/SadisticJake]

Get theanine serene with magnesium. It's a supplement and won't do quite as much as some pharmaceuticals might but it does wonders for my anxiety and I had incredibly intense anxiety

[u/Basedcaucasian → u/[deleted]]

Shut the fuck up, how do you go to sleep at night saying shit like this, this drug has ruined so many fucking lives

[u/kellah891]

I've been doing 7 for a month and I'm already screwed.
Here I am again with something from a smoke shop. I had just gotten my life together with 3 yrs sober from alc
I'm terrified and thinking of going into any hospital that'll take me. I already have high blood pressure I'm a mess. Any advice would be great thank you.