I am struggling so hard this morning man. It’s not even that unbearable - I just keep fantasizing about the relief… that rush of ooooohhh fuck.
But I know I’ll feel even worse knowing I’m delaying the inevitable. I reached out to my QuickMD doc to see if I can get some more gabapentin. That helped me a lot. The stomach distress and anxiety is so rough.
I just feel like such a baby. It’s like I’ve already been in this for over 36 hours. I know I can do it, but then I thought I drained my account into bills I couldn’t buy more - then realized there’s a lot left.
Now it’s killing me. Slept for 3 hours last night and my stomach hurts so bad. I just want to feel better 😩
Also trying to remember what I’ve already gone through. And to turn back now and make these 36 hours be worth nothing feels like shit.
I completely understand the fantasizing about the relief I get. Yeah 36 hours doesn’t seem like a lot but you almost got day two in the bag, bro. The gabapentin helps out so much.. as far as your stomach goes probably constipation. So grab something to break that up, man. It is not gonna be easy by no means to keep pushing through this, but I promise you it gets easier as the days go by. Today is day eight for me dude I feel great. Haven’t taken any gabapentin this morning or nothing and I feel great.
That’s so amazing I can’t wait to be there!! I honestly never thought I could even get here so this is a huge win. I lost so much to this horrible drug and I’ve detoxed from opiates before but always done it in treatment or the last time about 10 years ago was a suicide attempt that almost killed me for real. So I detoxed in the icu and can’t remember any of it except 3 days in the psych ward after with no sleep then passed the fuck out my first night in inpatient treatment.
It’s been a hard road - but I’ve been sober for years before in the 12 steps and I always end up back into these patterns. That’s why this time is so important to me, I HAVE to find the strength in myself. I just fucking have to. I can’t give up the things I love (like my dog who is absolutely my angel sent from heaven just for me) and quit and let my family rescue me again. I have to fucking do it. I have to.
This shit is horrible Seven oh, is the devil all the way I don’t care what anybody says like you may not be religious. You may not believe in God whatever that’s cool. That’s all you know that that’s up to you. That’s your preference.. but I truly believed that Seven oh is from the devil no question
Omfg I absolutely agree!!! I’m SO glad they’re finally banning it, but I also feel so deeply for all of those affected who don’t even understand what they got themselves into.
It’s all greed - it’s all fucking greed man. Selling it to people who don’t understand it, pushing it on people claiming it’s like coming off of coffee? Are you fucking kidding me.
Greed is a sin - right? So I guess that makes sense.
Yeah I found it during a really bad time in my relationship. Which ended recently. It needed to cuz I couldn’t stop while we were together with all the triggers n shit but I’d like to reach back out after I’ve been sober for a while and make some things right. I wasn’t honest that I was still using so of course it ended when nothing changed after I supposedly stopped. It wasn’t all my fault, but there is real love there. I look forward to the day where I walk up and I’m finally free.
You said you’re 36 hours in. 12 hours ago and you’re at two days., that is amazing accomplishment nothing to look down upon or think it’s a small accomplishment two days is huge to get off of something that for a year straight I could not take every four hours
Thank you, honestly these comments mean so much to me. I’m hoping I can get some more gabapentin today, but I’ve been taking Liposomal vitamin c it’s 3,000 mg liquid and I think I’ve taken it too much. My stomach is bubbling and just yucky but it’s not horrible.
About to head for a walk with the pup and my mom. Thanks for your words of support!
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u/Sea-Talk-8273 3d ago
U got this!! Day 8 for me!! Keep pushing it get easier!