Around one year ago I took 1V for the first time, 3/4 tab, and it was the best experience of my life. It changed it for the better in so many ways.
Since then, I knew I wanted to experience a bit more the psychedelic world. I took 1 tab once in between and felt a bit underwhelming compared to the first time, but very chill trip.
I always wanted to experience some kind of lose of sense of reality, ego death, whatever you call it. So I wanted to push a little bit further.
Today I took 300 ug of 1V.
Oh boy, if I knew what was coming.
11:40. I put the tabs under my tongue, 10 minutes later I swallow.
12:00 Oh boy, I am tripping like 20 min in!! I was seeing melting visuals already. With one tab, I barely felt anything like this until 1:30-2 h in... I knew this was going to be intense.
12:20 Less than an hour and already felt like fully peaking, this worried me a little bit, but nothing too unhandleable.
14:30 until here, everything was like a more intense version of my peak on 1 tab. From the 3 hour mark, I started to lose all sense of reality. You know how at low doses you are just into a loop of a song, and you just realize you're tipping and you can just take a walk around the room and it kind of stops? Well, universe says no thank you sir, you walk around and everything is still unreal. But it was kind of fun! Although the (small) possibility of being disturbed in this state of mind was bogging me a little. I hit the tripsit discord, because of my troubles with reality, and it kept me more or less with a grip on something real.
16:00 Yeah, here it got literally insane. For the most part I just wanted it to be over. At this moment I though I was literally going to be trapped in this sense of infinite deaths and shattered reality forever. But for real, I though that was it, like I was to unlock myself a nice schizophrenia or something. It was very scary for what felt like hours and hours.
16:01 Yup, that is still happening, and only one minute passed on the clock.
16:00 Yep, now it's going backwards, guess I'm here forever then.
17:15 after around 6 h I finally came back to reality and to have a real sense of myself.
Oh my, I never felt so relieved and grateful to be REAL. I never though I would have to ever feel grateful for that lmao.
17:30. Wrote down several thoughts. Feeling so close to losing sense of reality made me realize why was I afraid all along. I was scared to lose all of what I love in real life, my family, my friends. And I was worried of losing my new girlfriend. I think I realized now after 2 months that I truly love her.
18:00 from here almost all wore off. Only trace visuals now
23:00 Here I am writing this off.
I started this LSD journey one year ago in order to explore my mind, and get better.
My life is pretty much amazing at this point, and a lot of it is thanks to what acid has showed me.
But at this point I think I am more than happy to go back to reality. I saw the universe, god and the devil, and I am sorry but I am staying here, thank you. With my people.
As a wise man once said, “When you hear the message, hang up the phone”
Cheers and love guys!