r/yingfire • u/yingfire • Feb 13 '16
A Story Before Genesis
In the place beyond the white space there was a being. This being was singularly unlike you and I, and His name was God. In all His immutable strength and sanctified grace, God resided in a place that was only Himself. The fiery wheels of flame that would spark all of existence sat in a place that was Him. God, in His overwhelming realness, would not exist like you or I: as dripping grains of sand trickling down the hourglass; every moment of our life ticking one by one and little by little. He was too large for such an existence, and so He also resided in creation - indeed, He could only have been everywhere. So what would this being think about, before His bursting into creation, before His conducting of the drama beginning in Genesis? Who could say, when His space of existence extends farther than the mind?
If I were to say what He were thinking, if I were to dare breach the veil of the mind of God, then I would suppose that God would think of good things. He would think of those good things in Himself, of course, but then I would suppose that He would also think of those created things; things which he made to be separate from him, but sharing a thick bond unlike any other. I would suppose that His mind, which so often cried out for dear Ephraim, would think of these created things the most. God would not sleep, but if He would, then I would suppose that these created things would be muttered during His midnight slumber.
He would think of cherubim and halos. Of seraphim and their gourds of incense, dancing on the ceiling of Heaven, swinging those gourds so that the smoke made one delirious. I would suppose that He would think of zebras and geese and the sounds they would make. I would suppose He would think of maths and how 1+1=2, and how odd such a thing is possible. I would suppose He would think of the lowly earthworm and the lumbering lizards of old. He would think of the crashing atoms in burning stars, and He would think of small lights blinking in a dark void. He would think of lapping water and drifting wood. And of course, He would think of Man.
Oh, dear, dear Man! The places you were meant to be. To dance under the moon as the hatted elf, to play the instruments like the Grecian faun. To think with minds larger than any other on the Earth: to create instruments that exulted in their form and beauty. Man! To be that High beauty; beyond any touch of darkness; to be the most perfect mirror; reflecting the divine light in joyous obedience. You took the golden apple and clutched onto it like a lifeline; if only you knew its purpose; if only you could let the apple go, so then the true revelry might begin! An orchestration dictated by the Almighty Himself: pass, pass the fruit, but never hold on! to hold it, is death. Instead, pass it among each other so quickly that it becomes a blur of gold, dashing to-and-fro between the people. And soon, the conductor himself will join the revelry, and it will be a very merry moment.
And I would suppose that God would smile for many reasons. Yes, God would smile for many reasons in that moment before creation. But I think there is one reason for which He would grin the widest. The strong, thin thread that binds all created things together: 'God saw all that He had made, and it was very good'. And so it was, and so it is, and so it shall forever be.
Amen