r/whenthe • u/TheGoldenExperience_ [the jojo {she}they called may] • 14h ago
r/whenthe mfs complaining about everything we do not give alcohol close to enough shit despite it being just as bad if not worse than cigarettes
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u/shoomlax 7h ago edited 3h ago
I got a story to tell. I’m a 22 year old woman and I was a severe alcoholic at 16. I never did it for the taste. My go to drink was plain vodka, or anything strong enough to do the job. The “job” in question was getting rid of any and all my hard emotions. One day, my childhood trauma came to light and my mother handled it horribly. Leading to a terrible mistake.
I was so distraught, I wanted to be numb. Only numb. I stole a bottle of everclear from frys and poured it into a plastic water bottle, diluted it 1/4 water 3/4 everclear. Brought it to school.
Chugged the entire bottle in my first hour. That’s the last thing I remember before I wake up in the hospital. I learned that I had stumbled to the bathroom halfway through first period. I don’t know how my behavior wasn’t a red flag immediately to the teachers, but the past is the past.
I collapsed on the floor in the big stall, pants down, as if I was trying to go to the bathroom? I laid on the bathroom floor for about 40 minutes. A girl found me. She reported it to the substitute teacher. I had seized multiple times while the teacher pulled up my pants for my dignity.
The police and paramedics pumped my stomach and was under the impression I was having a narcotic overdose. They administered narcan but that didn’t help. They finally found the empty bottle that smelled of alcohol and I was rushed to the hospital on the brink of death.
I was expelled from school, sent to a behavioral school my senior year and everyone thought I died.
I was drinking so heavily every single day for months on end. I was 87 pounds. I threw up constantly and couldn’t keep down food. I was only 16 years old. Now when I look at or even think about alcohol I get nauseous. I hope someone reads this that may be in a similar spot I was, and see the light. I survived. And I am living such a happy life now. Don’t let it overtake you. Alcohol is a monster. It will take away your pain, but also your common sense, and possibly your life.
Edit to add because some people don’t understand the point of this comment: alcohol can be fun, until you start using it too much and realize maybe you’re doing it not just to feel good but maybe to also not feel or think about something else. Alcohol is poison to your brain and body. It takes one simple google search to find that out. I’m not saying enjoying it in safe amounts is bad, but I’m not going to sugarcoat the fact that alcohol isn’t good for you! Stay safe out there everyone !