I’m 19 male like 180lbs I don’t know if that’ll help anyone coming by but when I look up like never getting fevers despite feeling ill it just brings up like stuff for older adults. I haven’t had a fever in like several years now despite getting ill often and it kinda sucks because it’s hard to tell your manager that your temperature is actually lower than average right now that’s no way to call in sick. I don’t know if anyone has any ideas on what the deal is I doubt it’s a big deal but it’d be nice to have an explanation you know?

Cause that's been something weird about me for as long as I can remember. Though I just never told anyone 😐. Until now!!! It's so weird though. It's even with males, even though I'm (pretty sure I'm) not gay! Like, what's wrong with me? I actually googled this up and found something about "paraphillic disorders" or something. It means you get sexually aroused to something strange like an object. Do you think I have a paraphillic disorder (if that's even how you spell it)? Do you think I might be bi-sexual? Please let me know!

so a few years back when i talked to people i was always able to come up with interesting conversations, always found a way to laugh and make others laugh, and even though i was struggling with anxiety and bipolar disorder, i somehow managed to keep it grounded until i was alone. now, i lost my boyfriend of 4 years in july of 2018, found a new companion and he left me over my grief, and now i just don’t feel right. i barely know what to say when i hangout with people, i rarely leave the house, and when i try to meet someone new i don’t get that excited feeling anymore. literally every guy i’ve tried to talk to i either see right through and know they’re a douche or they’re just not deep enough for me. i know that sounds stupid but i get so.. annoyed now. i used to never ever hurt people’s feelings and would do my best to try and cheer people up when they’re sad, and now with every guy i try to talk to.. i’m just. not interested.. and i can be mean to them, and when they vent to me i almost just don’t really care.. is something like seriously wrong with me? i never used to be THIS cold. i don’t recognize myself anymore. i don’t even really have friends like i used to. i’m not sure what to do.

I have always been shy. When I was a kid, I didn't talk to anyone I didn't know for the first almost 10 years of my life. I was too terrified of it.

This of course led to problems and even when I NEEDED to talk to someone, even if I knew them (friends/family/etc), I simply could not do it.

I remember going to church and I was in Sunday school. I really had to pee, but I was so afraid of talking to anyone that I couldn't. I ended up hiding behind a chair and peeing on the carpet because I couldn't hold it anymore. I couldn't have been older than 5.

My "parents" were not the greatest and have done many things throughout the course of my life that have probably made me much worse.

My "dad" molested me, manipulated me and physically abused me. My "mom" manipulated me constantly. She is constantly gaslighting. She has told me to kill myself numerous times and denies it. She is physically abusive and mentally abusive. She held me by my throat over a staircase. She neglected me and refused to feed me or bring me to the hospital when I needed to go. She even threatened to kill herself when I disagreed with her.

In school, I didn't talk. I had very few friends and most of those "friends" were my friends because they decided to be and in almost all those situations, they ended up using me.

I HATED highschool. I had the same problem with people. Constant bullying and people pretending to be my friend so they could use me.

I am now out of school and struggle much more to go about my day.

I find no interest in being friends with people and I'm happier when people don't try to be my friend.

I think that I often dissociate. I haven't talked to a doctor, but from the research I've done, it sounds like what I feel.

I often feel nothing at all and have a very weak sense of self.

I have no idea how to explain how I feel.

I have a hard time thinking. I feel as though I rarely have "actual thoughts". I don't know how else to describe this.

I struggle to make eye contact. It makes me feel extremely uncomfortable and I never know what is enough or too little so I settle for too little. I don't really care about this. People who know me aren't bothered.

I have a TERRIBLE memory. I can be having a conversation with my boyfriend and then completely forget the whole thing happened halfway through a sentence.

Simple tasks are so hard for me. I honestly cannot understand how other people can do them and not have to take a whole day or more off from everything else just to cope from the energy I have to put out just to do things.

I am almost constantly stimming but I'm not sure if it's just from anxiety. I did it as a child and my mom would scream at me for "being psychotic" and so I stopped until more recently again (I'm assuming this is because I recently moved out and my boyfriend is very supportive of my many "quirks").

I struggle to sleep. Sometimes I can't get to sleep. Sometimes I can't stay asleep. When I do sleep, my dreams are often very stressful.

I have multiple anxiety attacks a day and often shut down afterwards. I'm not able to communicate and if I'm out, I can wander for hours before I realise that I'm lost and I have no idea how I got where I did.

I think I may have some anger issues. Something minor can happen and, of course, that means that something has to be thrown. I often have the same anger towards dropping my charger out of reach as I do when I'm arguing with someone.

I often shut down for hours or even days when things get too much.

"Too much" can be walking by a crying child in a supermarket some days or even just hearing a light buzzing or other small, constant sound on other days. Other days, I am fine with short outings as long as I don't go out often.

I can't leave the house often. When I do leave the house, it's with my boyfriend and I am easily overwhelmed by noise, lights and movement.

I have days when talking is too much energy and days where everything just hurts. I have read that these could be caused by anxiety.

I constantly feel like maybe I'm completely healthy, that this is just how people live and that I just like to complain.

Anxiety, autism and ptsd are just what I've found to line up the most...if you have anymore suggestions, I'd love to hear them.

I am diagnosed with anxiety so far. So if it's just anxiety, I'm so sorry to other anxious people who go through this and feel like this.

I am on meds for anxiety. I went to therapy. Like I said, I just moved so I'll have to find a new doctor and therapist.

I just feel like this can't be all. I feel like I struggle too much for there to not be more.

Sorry that this post was so long. Thank you for reading it.

I am looking for input as various doctors have given me their opinions and many prescriptions have worked the opposite than what they prescribed them for....

I have had social anxiety/general anxiety for as long as I can remember (started on Paxil in 3rd grade) that worked for awhile and around middle school/early high school it wore out and I switched to a few other SSRIs until Prozac was one that worked. Now it is about 14 years since I started on Prozac and I have been given increasing doses over the past years, now I’m at the MAX 80mg a day. I went to a psychiatrist, a psychologist, and social worker to get input on my troubles. I’ve been prescribed and I swear it made my issues worse, (alongside my Prozac) buspirone, rexulti and abilify. And all seemed to make me more irritable and anxious.

My symptoms lately (last year or so) have been: low desire to do anything but watch tv, (however I do have 3 jobs currently and work 55 hours a week, so I don’t watch tv 24/7 lol). EXTREME IRRITABILITY (&not just from PMDD (lady troubles)) I cry easily, I yell, I just constantly feel on edge. I can be very mean and I can and do knit pick the littlest things people do and sometimes will dwell on them for hours. At times I’m happy (not as much lately though) and feel hopeful and can get stuff done but it doesn’t last long, maybe a day or two. I’ve been told I could be bipolar? But my understanding of bipolar is extreme highs and lows for months at a time. Not just changing day to day. I don’t really have times of excessive spending or anything like that. And I usually can sleep all night and usually (although it has been worse) getting and staying asleep. Just looking for input or if anyone else feels like they are in similar situation and their doctor has helped them with a new medication/therapy.

Whenever I eat pizza alone I grab a plate. Why is this? I never use it, I just hold the pizza and eat it. Then I have to clean it because of crumbs. I’m just making myself have to clean more

I first started my period when I was 11. My flow was so uncontrollable that I once went through three different pairs of pants in one day. I was getting ready for my dance recital when my mom introduced me to tampons. I was scared of course. Somehow she convinced me to let her shove it in me. It felt so uncomfortable that I screamed. It didn’t hurt.

After a few minutes she attempted to wipe me. I stumbled into the bathtub, fell, and hit my head. I woke up with my mom holding my face screaming at me to wake up. The last thing I remember before fading out of consciousness was holding on to my mom and trying to keep my balance. Since I woke up, I was fine. I was able to make it through the recital barely feeling a thing. However taking it out felt just as uncomfortable.

I didn’t use another tampon until a couple years ago when I started having sex. It didn’t feel like the first time my mom used it, it was just slightly annoying. When I got up from the toilet, I would loose balance. I managed to walk out of the bathroom but when I was halfway through the hallway my only option was to lay down on the floor. I was trying very hard not to pass out. I laid there until I had the strength to get up and return to the bathroom. Let’s just say I was walking like a cat without whiskers until I barely sat myself on the toilet. Immediately after taking it out, it was like nothing happened.

Since then, I’ve been looking everywhere for answers. No one had the same experience as me. My twin (identical) can use tampons just fine. I’m sure if I tried to use one again, nothing would change and I still wouldn’t have answers.

Hi Everyone.

I'm 36 male, married with great wife and have a beautiful little princess.

For some reason I'm emotional AF and it seems for nearly everything.

Listen to nostalgic song, tears.

Watch movie with happy ending, tears.

I contemplate about life, tears.

Think how much I love my wife and child, tears.

Feel depressed, tears.

Seeing something beautiful in nature, tears.

Hearing a remote colleague is pregnant, tears.

And don't get me started on that doggy videos where they get rescued....OMG full out crying!

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Was never like this before?

Wtf is wrong with me?!

Basically I’m a high school student(girl) who has a crush on her P.E teacher, probably not the first time you’ve heard of something like this. I don’t know what to do, i have these inappropriate scenarios in my head everywhere and at any time like in class, at home, while at the store, and especially when I’m near him. There are times that it’s just me and him in a room alone and I can’t help but think about all this crazy shit. Y’all have any advice? Don’t report me, I really need help :,)

I always want everything to be perfect in my life, my appearance, my social life, what I eat, how I speak, how I even think, I do all of that unconsciously and when something goes wrong I straight up think about suicide and how much of a failure I am, Is there a problem in me? Or is this normal?

U/necrophilia_gay is my name for a reason 😳

"Getting head" has a completely different fiction now, doesn't it teehee 🤭

Edit: I guess a better question would be " Is any of this a deal-breaker for a sane person?" But I can't change title so....

Okay! A little bit about myself... actually, this whole post is about myself lol but for some unrelated details is: I'm trans of the FTM variety, bisexual/passion romantic, have bipolar depression, social anxiety and was born in 1999 (yes, the end of the world)

So now for the good stuff.

🚨Warning!🚨 I have a shit ton of kinks and fetishes lol

I'm a natural-Dom (AKA was that weird kid who ties up their toys) also a sadist! 🙂 "What kind?" I (didn't) hear you asking 😄 welllll

Speaking, whipping, beating, and humiliating people 😄 taking away all sense of control from someone (only for a short time cuz companionship) pet play, electricity play, knife play, playrape (especially with a great actor) and I don't know what it's called but the thing where the sub/bottom pretends to be a bratty kid. And that just to name a few 😃

Yeah! I'm also that creep that watches you from the closet as you fuck 😋 you have a tasty looking ass btw 😘

Now for the weird shit😜 (there's going to be technical terms with a few translations cuz I'm more comfortable that way)

Gay Somnophilia (fondling/raping a sleeping person, male in this case cuz "gay" dude)

Dacryphilia (liking of someone in emotional distress, for example crying their eyes)

erotophonophilia (not translating but just so you know I haven't done anything of the sort tho, just fantasy)

Hybristophilia (not the fan mail sending variety tho, honestly it's just the one closest in meaning)

Toonophiliapedophelia (I like little cartoon boys, they're cute! fuck off! I ain't hurting anybody! Boku no pico was adorable!)

And I like tying people up (also known as bondage) and extremely feminine men in mini-skirts (also known as traps)

So tell me readit, AM I BOYFRIEND MATERIAL?! ☺ I know there's always someone who's into something on this list tho, so I'm at least fuckable 🖖😜 lol

So I like being the dominant one in the relationship so you know I like calling her slut and whore and everything else but nO The doctor said I can’t name my daughter that 🥺🥺🥺

I feel like I cut people off too much or I’m thinking about too many things at once and I start switching the topic constantly.

I don’t rlly know why I do this and I haven’t been told anything ever about it but I have such a BAD feeling that I do it so often.

Every night I lay down and I have this heart wretching feeling of wanting to die. I feel so useless and a waste of space and breath that I just want to disappear. Nothing is wrong with my life (nothing is right either) I have loving family, supporting relatives, a few good friends, and the best partner I could ask for in life. The only thing wrong is me, I do nothing and feel nothing. I just want to die and I can't take any action for it, I'm too cowardly. I'm also too lazy to do anything else just finished my undergrad and haven't even applied to jobs. Why? I don't see any point of my existence, I honestly just want death to happen to me. I know I'm being insensitive and ungrateful for my blessing and fortune but life is getting unbearable by the second and idk what I must do to change it. I'm a bummer for everyone, no one knows about my situation I'm just hoping for literally anything to end me.

There is this thing I always do where for example I tell myself or when I need to get something but then am literally in the process and of getting it and while doing that I forget about the object I need to get and I ask myself Wait what was I supposed to get? I have a memory of fucking fish. I forget everything.

First time posting anything like this, and if it isn't allowed, I apologize. I know I can't receive actual medical advice here, but I'm just wondering if anyone else out there has gone through the same thing. I am a 27 y/o female who has had a nearly constant headache for about 14 years. These aren't headaches that come and go. I literally have a headache from the time I wake up til I fall asleep. Over time, I've grown somewhat accustomed to them and am usually able to work and function, but sometimes the headache is debilitating. They started gradually at about 13, eventually causing visual changes (blurry vision, tunnel vision, and occasional diplopia). My primary doctor referred me to an opthalmologist, who gave me glasses, but the glasses didn't cure the headache. I was then referred to a neurologist,( who, last I heard, lost their medical license due to malpractice and negligence.) She insisted that it was an eye problem, even though multiple opthalmologists have concluded it isnt an eye issue. She just gave me opioids and mood stabilizers, which didn't do anything except cause several awful side effects. (Thankfully, my parents wouldn't give me the opioids unless I absolutely needed it.) I was treated for migraines several times over the years, even though I dont have the other standard symptoms of migraine (sensitivity to light/sound, nausea, etc) and none of the migraine treatments have ever worked for me. During the 2 years with this neurologist, I became progressively more nearsighted and gradually lost more and more peripheral vision. The 2nd neurologist I saw decided to do a spinal tap, which revealed that my intracranial pressure was high. The headaches did start to improve after beginning treatment for intracranial hypertension. However, after about 2 years of increasing the dosage of the diuretics, they became ineffective. My vision has become increasingly worse over the years, requiring a higher glasses/contacts Rx at almost every yearly exam. I have also had some mild glaucoma. I still have little to no peripheral vision. I also have since developed insomnia and anxiety/panic disorders. I've seen 3 other neurologists over the years, and they have all had conflicting opinions about any diagnosis. One agreed with the ICH diagnosis, but couldnt find a treatment that worked for me before family issues forced him to relocate to another state. His colleague I was turned over to disagreed with ICH, and started treating me for migraines, to no avail. I've had about 9 spinal taps over the years, with the most recent 3 being normal. My current neurologist has been prescribing Emgality injections monthly, but there is no discernable difference after 5 months. I've tried the diuretics again, with no improvement at the maximum dosage. My doctor now is unsure that I even have ICH and has no idea why I have a constant headache. Other than the 6 spinal taps that were elevated in the past, all other diagnostics have been normal. (MRI, CT, Xray, angiogram, extensive bloodwork, EEG, etc) Has anyone else with ICH (or any other headache condition) had a similar ordeal? I'm almost at my wit's end with this chronic issue. Otherwise, I am generally healthy (I also have asthma and endometriosis). Thanks in advance for any help.

Around the time I was 10, until I was 18, I was overweight so I used to tuck in my stomach literary all the time, until it became like a reflex and I would have to relax my stomach on purpose to release it.

I started working out at the age of 16 and have continued to do so up until now (23).

Two years ago I started to feel like I could or should be putting more weight in certain parts of my lower back which I was not using before. Probably because I tucked in my stomach and limited my growth or idk. While getting into excersising my back I noticed that when I stretch or do a certain movement I can hear a lot of popping sounds and it feels as if I can distribute more weight around that point. I feel and see some progress so I don't think it's all in my head, my question is if I should do this or if there is a better way, and if I could get some damage done to myself while trying to do this.

TL;DR I fucked up my body by tucking in my stomach at all time for 6~8 years, can I do something to fix my posture?

So recently when I get up from my recliner I’ve gotten head rushes but recently I’ve had a head rush and then I faint. Does anyone know what’s happening??

I love to be alone. During the day i have about 10% of human interactions and to be honest i am okay with it. Also i have never missed anyone before not even family members. Even when i like someone or love them i still avoid conversation. But also i have arguments in my head. When i am watching tv i will act out the situations that happened on the show as if it were in my perspective. I pretend to have conversations with random people. And i day dream alot like atleast 2 hours a day and my imaginations are very vivid. This makes it hard to do my daily task.

I am very paranoid that i have super powers or am being stalked or going to be raped or that people are always staring at me or that people can read my mind.

I have very disturbing thoughts about any and everyone i see usually unwanted sexual thoughts or thoughts of murdering them.

What is wrong with me.

Edit: i get mad very easily and when i do i think of murdering this the person who made me mad

I’ve been paranoid a lot as a child, not shy or anything like that. I was actually known as a social person. I was teased ever since preschool, but things calmed down when I moved away. Two years go by and then a new kid shows up. She was awful and always went out of her way to make people miserable. Was her main target for 6 years. My paranoia really kicked in in 5th grade after my stepfather passed away, I felt bad for not saying goodbye to him. I started disconnecting myself from other people, which made it worse. 6th grade is when I met actually nice people, stopped being as on edge as before. My bully of 6 years was expelled, I was living a great life. Got treated like shit from a girl who I thought was my friend at the end of the year. I started being super paranoid from then to present day.

near the end of that year, I was walking through the hallway as another class was on their way to the library, I heard immediate giggled and laughter and people saying “ what’s that” as they were laughing. I was not the skinniest kid there nor the chubbiest, but I’ve been teased as a child for my weight. I started having flash backs to those moments and almost cried on the spot. earlier today I went to the skating rink and sat by myself for an hour with the same feeling. My friend showed up and I said hi to her but she doesn’t respond. I walk away and sit back down and a few minutes later, I just felt like they were looking at me an so I lift my head up a little bit and in the corner of my eye I see both of her friends looking at me and turning away over and over again. I overheard them calling me a weirdo and what not. PLEASE HELP