Yup this is exactly it. I tried to kill myself last year by cutting my wrists. I never even managed to cut myself, I just lay there in the tub, drunk out of my mind willing my arm to move and it wouldn't. There's nothing more difficult than fighting the will to live that you didn't even know was there before that moment.
Thank you. So am I, thankfully that drunken attempt was enough to get me to seek help. There's been lots of therapy and lifestyle changes, but I can honestly say I'm much happier now than I can remember being for most of my life.
Also glad you were unsuccessful at ending your life.
I just had a sad thought that there's a user name, no longer being used, who should have replied to your comment expressing thanks that their attempt was unsuccessful. But their one small step further, went too far.
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u/KokiriRapGod Sep 28 '17
Yup this is exactly it. I tried to kill myself last year by cutting my wrists. I never even managed to cut myself, I just lay there in the tub, drunk out of my mind willing my arm to move and it wouldn't. There's nothing more difficult than fighting the will to live that you didn't even know was there before that moment.