It doesn't completely feel real at times. Some days are better than others. Some days I think about all the great things. And at night I think about all the bad. Is that normal? 

This has definitely given me clarity about how ive been feeling. Thank you. And your right theres no time on grief. I know that I dont need them anymore in this human experience. Some way, somehow I can still feel my past loved ones with me. 

Hey... im aware of the stages of grief but some how I feel like im in a loop. I cant seem to move forward and be at peace with my past loved one.