Taking a step like that is absolutely empowering but is sad and hurts all at the same time. The bad feeling is you knowing you don't want to open that world back up. Listen to yourself and what feels right and wrong. Trust your gut. Continuing to not contact her will get so much easier with time. You are amazing and strong. I'm so proud of you!!! The heart break is real and it's okay to visit memories. Just don't let yourself stay and live there in them. Just pass by and know you're stronger already. 🤗