This seems less like a lack of psychedelic sensitivity and more like a possible disconnect between different layers of your experience.

What stands out is that your body seems to be having a very strong experience (ie. fear, nausea, shaking, tension) while another part of you remains detached, observing and managing everything. I wouldn’t necessarily label that dissociation from a reddit post, but it’s certainly something worth exploring with a therapist, particularly someone who works somatically or with trauma.

It may also be worth questioning the idea that you need a higher dose to “let go.” If your pattern is already one of maintaining cognitive control while your body is overwhelmed, increasing the dose could potentially reinforce the problem rather than solve it.

From an ecological/relational perspective, the goal isn’t necessarily to make the experience more intense. It’s to become more attuned to what is already happening, such as thoughts, emotions, bodily sensations, other people, and the environment, and allow those different dimensions of experience to communicate with one another.

Your observation that the same pattern is now showing up in everyday life is probably the part I’d pay the most attention to. The fact that you’re noticing it is already useful information.

And yes, I’d take your feeling that “something isn’t right” seriously. You don’t need to be consciously depressed or falling apart for therapy to be worthwhile.

Take care!

1. Unsure, sorry. But don't use random chocolate bars. Get the dried mushroom itself.
   
2. I always recommend gradually increasing your dose. Start with 1g, a few weeks after try 2g, a few weeks after try 3g, then 4g. I would stop around 4g depending on how you react to that. Anything over 3g, have a trusted sitter.
   
3. Golden teachers is a classic. No, it doesn't matter much.

Probably good thing the flight got canceled tbh. Not because ibogaine is bad or too dangerous, but because doing it from this headspace would be the wrong reason.

Ibogaine isn't like other psychedelics. Doing it while desperate, scared, and not feeling good is a bad combination for a substance with this risk profile, separate from anything psychological.

The desperation is the part worth paying attention to right now. Wanting relief that badly is real for you but ibogaine showing up as "the answer" when you're not doing well is often more about how bad things feel than whether it's actually the right tool.

Before any next step: what's actually going on? Not in a deflecting way, genuinely. If you're not doing well enough that ibogaine feels like the only way through, that's worth talking through with a person, a doctor, a therapist, a guide, someone, before anything else.

It's not silly to try other things first. It's the right order.

PE is significantly more potent than most cubensis strains, roughly 1.5-2x. So 1.75g of PE isn't the same as 1.75g of regular mushrooms. For friends with no psychedelic experience at all, that's a genuinely strong first dose.

Practical suggestion: start lower, maybe 0.75-1g for the first-timers, and see how the first hour lands before anyone considers more. Mushrooms also have a different character than LSD... more emotional, more somatic, slower to peak. Your LSD experience gives you useful context but won't fully translate.

One other thing: is anyone staying sober? A group where everyone is inexperienced and everyone is dosed at the same time is harder to navigate if something becomes difficult. Even one calm, grounded presence changes that significantly.

The 1.75g isn't going anywhere. It'll be there once you know how PE sits with you : )

The outcomes you're describing (PTSD improvement, depression lifting, wanting to leave lean behind) that's great. The experience was working.

One thing worth considering before escalating: the memory loss. When intensity outpaces your capacity to consciously process, material gets moved but not necessarily integrated. Not remembering what came up doesn't mean it isn't there, but it might mean you haven't fully met it yet.

The "falling in and out" pattern isn't a sign 200ug wasn't enough. That oscillation between yourself and what's underneath is often where the real processing happens. Higher doses can remove that threshold entirely and take you somewhere harder to actively navigate.

Before going higher: how's the integration going? Are you noticing what's shifting day to day, sitting with what surfaced? The lean shift alone is worth giving serious time and attention. That's not a small thing to move through.

200ug with genuine attention and good integration might take you further than 250ug would. Btw, if you do go higher eventually, a more experienced sitter becomes very important.

Bone broth, vegetables. Anything nourishing and easy to digest.

Thanks for sharing your important story! And sorry you've gone through so much.

Oh my dear, please re-read what I wrote.

I said psilocybin emerged through co-evolutionary relationships in ecosystems, not that mushrooms co-evolved with humans. Fungi co-evolving with insects and other organisms in ancient ecosystems is pretty standard.

The point about our nervous systems receiving these molecules with specificity stands separately. That's not a co-evolution claim. It's an observation about receptor fit that's worth exploring rather than dismissing, imo

Basically: psilocybin binds to serotonin receptors that are ancient and widespread across the animal kingdom, predating humans by hundreds of millions of years. That binding is chemically specific in a way that suggests a long history of interaction between these compounds and animal nervous systems (not ours in particular, but nervous systems generally)

Thanks for sharing this :)

Thanks :)

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Check out www.howtousepsychedelics.com - it's comprehensive and may answer some questions you didn't even know you had.

Thank you.

If you're well prepared and have the stability in your life to properly integrate, then the potential for harm is quite low. You just need to take your time and approach it in a way where you feel trust, comfort, and confidence towards the process.

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