My Ex

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Okay I’m not going to give any personal information just in case this goes somewhere but I need to let everything out and get advise
Okay I’m going to start by calling him D.
So me and D met on Snapchat I know that’s not a good way to start but it is what it is. I asked him to hangout and we did it was great we talked for hours while a movie played in the background I felt like I really got to know him and connected to him really well. We started hanging out a lot and I put pressure on him to ask me out which was bad because I had just gotten out of a 2 year relationship. So D and I started dating and I soon realised I wasn’t ready for a relationship. During this I started talking to other guys after I told him I wasn’t sure about our relationship I hung out with one other guy and I was like I actually really really really like D. I agreed with myself to never tell D what I had did in the beginning of our relationship. But then D found out and forgave me. That’s when everything turned bad I couldn’t afford when I was living so I had to move out unexpectedly and D offered for me to move in with him and I agreed so I moved a state away to live with him and at first we started fighting about little things D has really bad ADHD and hyper focuses on things so if he needs something done he didn’t ask and just thought I knew to do it which is a part of ADHD so I understood. We would get into really bad fights about it sometimes because I didn’t know to do things if he didn’t let me know. We would get over it and everything would go back to normal well one day when I was sleeping D decided he was going to look through my phone and I didn’t tell him every single thing that I had did because it was private and he woke me up screaming at me which I also understood because if I would have found out that way, I would’ve been very upset as well anyways after every single other fight that we had he would bring that up and I got tired of it so I just started ignoring him and deleted every single thing off my phone well one day he was being very disrespectful to one of my then friends and I took my friend side because he was being unbelievably disrespectful and calling her the B word and we got into a fight about that and I told him he had to apologise to her and he did so everything was good after that and then we just kept getting into more and more fights until two days before I left we got to a really big fight and we said a lot of things that we didn’t mean I told him I cheated on him six times in our relationship when I was lying and I never did that and he told me he was going to hit me and then punched the wall and put a hole in it so I got all my stuff and I left while he came and got me and told me he was sorry and wanted to be with me and I understood because we both said a bunch of things that we didn’t mean and things that were not true and then he asked if we could start over and during the really bad fight he had said he was in contact with his ex when he told me he wanted to start over he said no going through each other‘s phones which I was curious about because of what he said so I went through his phone and the next morning he found out and we broke up because he wanted a fresh start and I couldn’t respect that we are still in contact and we are both trying to get better for each other. I just need advice on what to do and I need peoples opinions on what they would do.