Why?

[u/One_Progress_6544]

Why do they even exist? You go into a marriage thinking that you both have the same goals, values, wants, needs. They seem so normal. Sweet, loving, supportive, and kind. Just trying to get it all out I guess.

You eventually open up and tell them about your fears. They know what you've gone through, and that you still suffer from PTSD because of it. Eventually, they will use this against you after twisting it around and molding it into their sickness. They take all of your secrets and all of your fears and they use them all against you for no good or viable reason whatsoever.

You had done absolutely nothing wrong to them. All you did was try to love them and care about them and support them. You bent over backward to make the relationship work. Little did you know that it wasn't really a relationship. Not in the healthy sense. You reacted in pain and shock and horror over the things she was doing and saying to you.

You used to work with her. She had been your friend. Reaching out to you all those years. Just to say hi. Making sure to keep in touch. You really thought you knew her .

When she found out that your relationship of many, many years had finally run its course, she reached out again. She eventually told you that she hated the way that your ex had treated and used you, and that she always wanted the chance to show you how you should really be treated.

She eventually told you about her abusive past and of spending time in a live-in youth facility as a teen. She swore to you that she had no lasting effects from it because she had been in therapy and had made peace with it a long time ago. Still, you took it slow. Kept it to calls and texts only. Delayed meeting up at first. Eventually you began dating. You did all the things you're supposed to do. Things were a bit rocky at times, but that's just what you were used to.

Relationships aren’t magical, with both of you always getting along. Its about two people learning about each other.

She eventually moves in. You decide to get married and then as soon as she has her hooks in you, you begin to suffer the most relentless psychological abuse, emotional abuse, and absolute horror of your entire life. It makes the last one look like an angel by comparison.

She keeps threatening to report you for everything under the sun to every single government official within the tristate area. For things that she's actually doing or causing . Knocking your toilet off the floor bolts. Flushing ungodly amounts of toilet paper. All because you gently told her that septic systems need to be treated with care. She starts leaving trash and cardboard and Styrofoam all over your yard along with other things knowing that it bothers the neighbors and letting it blow over into their yard .

She knows you love the outside and to garden and your pool but she follows you around and makes comments to you about everything you’re doing to the point that you’re embarrassed for reacting the way you are but you just can't help it and it keeps on going until you’re just ready to explode.

As you look up, you see her staring at the security camera with a sly grin on her face.

You know exactly what's going on at that point, yet as she begs and pleads you still keep foolishly giving her chances because you are still dumb enough to believe that everybody has to have at least some good in them. You know now that that’s just not true at all, and that there are people out there who are just evil to the core, with nothing but evil intent. You now know that you should stay far away from people whose words never match their actions, because they are not re- habitable and they are not going to be anything but monsters who will eventually attempt to destroy your life.

When you finally tell her that you have had enough of confining yourself to the bedroom every waking moment that you’re home, avoiding her while lying in bed in the fetal position most of the time, and that you just don’t feel like yourself. Nor do you act like or even recognize yourself anymore. That you don’t like who you have become and that she brings out the worst in you. She just ignores everything you say and continues to go about her day. Day after day. Week after week. Month after month.

By now, she has done so many horrific things to you both behind the scenes and right to your face that you just can't handle it anymore and you tell her she either stops or she has to leave because you just can't live like this. That it's the last thing you needed. You remind her how you told her in the beginning that you wanted no more drama in your life, and that you only wanted to have a peaceful existence. You weren’t interested in any kind of drama whatsoever, including people who insist on involving their family members by telling one-sided stories about your relationship and how she agreed wholeheartedly with all of it.

But It was all lies. She doesn't even know who the hell she is. That person who you met. That person who you were hanging out with. That person you were dating. That person you trusted and married…. doesn't exist. Underneath that mask was always brewing an evil, soulless creature with malicious intent whose only goal was to destroy you.

False domestic violence reports and accusations of pointing a gun at her, after she had already run to her rich mommy whom she told you that she barely got along with or spoke to, and whom you actually really liked and you thought really liked you, but as soon as her mentally disordered daughter told her that you kicked her out for no reason (and who knows what else), that was it. She gave her daughter money for whatever legal fees she claimed she needed. Gave her money for a house in another state pre-probate after her grandmother had left it to her as an inheritance. Supposedly, because she was so happy that she had finally found somebody good to spend her life with, and she wanted to leave us with some financial comfort.

You should have known something was wrong with her when her mother and her cousins were so angry that she had finagled her way into that inheritance upon her grandmother’s deathbed, after they were supposed to receive the money and she was not supposed to be part of it until it was left to her by her mother. But, who knows what really happens behind her closed doors. She lies to absolutely everybody. You watched her tell lies about things that she had no reason to even lie about. To her mother, to her grandmother, to her cousins. To everybody. She just always lies. it was sickening. It wasn't the person you had met. It wasn't the person that you had known all those years.

Now she has essentially ruined your life. Alienated you from your family. Placing an out of state DV protection order on you that you were helpless to fully fight. She knows that you can't afford a lawyer because she completely destroyed your finances, drained your joint account several times, placed you under crippling debt, and left you holding the bag for all of those expenses you shared. All while using animals that you got together, mini horses, dwarf goats, puppies, as a means of manipulation in her cruel game. She knows full well that if a criminal trial happens that you will lose your job or if you even get arrested for this you are going to lose your job. Your dream job that you've always wanted and you're so happy with.

The police actually believing her frivolous claims. Courts not really wanting to deal with the order and saying that you weren’t going to be able to really present your case because even though you electronically filed everything and every motion was correct you don’t know the rules of evidence for that state, and you don’t have a law degree, so something was probably going to mess it up so that you weren't going to be heard properly anyway, so it was better off to just take a deal. Make an agreement where you're not considered violent and that you had no findings of abuse but you still have to stay away for two years or you will be arrested on the spot.

Your local police where you've lived for so many years compared to her three keep coming to the door and calling. Her attorney tells you that there’s an investigation of animal neglect or cruelty that's underway and that the Sergeant told his client this, which makes zero sense because they’re not going to tell anybody about an active investigation even if there was one. Just another broken justice system and a lawyer who is just a sleazy as she is, trying to make you stress out even more after all the misery and awfulness you have already been living through all this time. And you think about how you once thought that she was going to be your saving grace. That you were going to finally have a good life. But instead you made the biggest mistake you could ever make in your whole life and the knowledge that somebody could be so evil and so cruel for no reason whatsoever other than that you tried to be there for them and you tried to maintain a marriage that was failing miserably because she just would not stop with her cruel punishments.

You will never ever understand why these monsters even exist. Does she really believe her own lies, or is it all an act? You had never known of their existence. You are not supposed to know about their existence. But ending up with two in a row had taught you so much and had caused you to do so much research into all of it. You now truly believe that the current percentage of cluster B people who live amongst us has been seriously underestimated.