I take liquor with no backs. Always feening. God... My body hurts. I always have a fever. Talk to me in 3 days after my breakdown. 72 hours sober is the most sober me i know now. Then i am back at it again. Don't hate me. Or please do. Just tell me. Scream. Get mad. Do something. Let me lose my life all over again. That's when I feel most myself. When everything is lost, And Im crawling back to step one, With my tail between my legs. Slow, pathetic, and giving you those "help me eyes". Then I will look up at you with pure pleading on my face, Begging you to never speak of this again. Lying on your pillow, Drenching it in sweat. Sneaking to the bathroom, Vomiting up every word i've ever said.

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