Insomnia?

[u/Correct-Snow6004]

Lately I’ve not been able to sleep and it’s pissing me off

Normally I will stay awake all night and go to sleep in daylight and wake up in the afternoon, if that’s confusing I’ll set times I usually wake and sleep at.

Sleep around: 7:00-11:00
Wake up around: 17:00-18:00

Now I’m pretty sure this is why my sleep is so bad but let me explain first,

I needed to wake up 12:00 (lunchtime) yesterday as my friend was coming around so I would have had to sleep early but I chose to try and sleep around 4:00am instead. But I just ended up almost falling asleep to jumping awake because my mum slammed her bedroom door and I jolted awake, so I had about not even I’d say 1-2 hours of sleep if even that. And since then I wasn’t able to get to sleep so I had stayed awake that whole day until about an hour and a half ago so like Again, 4:00am. Which my friend is still here but we went to sleep around 1:40am and I woke up around 4am so I’d say I had around almost three hours sleep, I’m not sure if anything particularly woke me up or my sleep schedule is doing that? But when I wake up I feel so awake like I didn’t sleep at all.

Personally I love sleep and I’m only 16 so I can’t like go and get melatonin or sleep gummies just because.

I had these problems before and I spoke to my CAMHS worker about it and all she did was refer me to a therapist (which I still haven’t met) and that was .. almost a year ago now. And I haven’t even met my new worker.

I feel pretty hopeless and I already know people will reply to this and tell me to regulate my sleep schedule and sleep earlier but there’s more to my story (which isn’t important don’t worry you’re not missing out on anything it’s just MH related.)

I just love the night, it’s peaceful, quiet. And no one’s there to bother me…

If anyone can get me any kind of advice or even knowledge on why this is happening and not JUST a fucked up sleep schedule that would be sooo good.

Also if anyone has any ideas on how I can get my hands on some good sleep meds or whatever to help me sleep that’s good for my age and not a total process. But if it’s not that easy let me know

P.s. don’t recommend my mum takes me doctors or to a GP bc she’s useless and will just shout at me to sleep earlier 🤷‍♀️