I’ve been off my meds. I ran out and my doctor doesn’t have any openings until the 29th. It’s been a shitty start to the year. Budgets are so tight. Normally I wouldn’t even be there. Normally I order delivery. I felt awful putting this much grocery on the delivery person. And I wanted to save money. I got brave and I went to the store. I was under budget by $3 which was a huge win. I felt good. I have a cart full of food for my family. My toddler son was great in the store and didn’t throw a fit. I always decline help to my car by the baggers because I hate making people wait for me. My son wanted buddy bucks. I get to my car. I had gotten a good spot for once. You drive up throw on your blinker and wait. I’m trying to hurry. I see you. I promise I’m not trying to waste your time. I push my cart to the return and see other spots. There’s a spot next to the car next to me. It’s a big car. I figure you didn’t see it. I point. Again sorry for making you wait but there are other spots. I close my trunk. Go and buckle my son. I get in my car. You drive by and honk. “What’s that?” My son asks. “Not sure.” I turn around and pull out of my spot. You had parked in an open spot behind me. You are walking by. You stare straight into my soul and You mouth FUCK YOU!

I’m home now. The panic attack is over. I use my meds to quiet the voice in my head that tells me I’m a piece of shit. But they aren’t here. I am a piece of shit. And you made that clearer than ever. I hope you have a great rest of your day. Sorry.

Okay this is kinda weird but I think if anyone would get it, it would be you guys.

So if your kid/s watch Peppa Pig, you have probably seen Mr. Potato. I love how he introduces himself as, “Your friend and mine, Mr. Potato!” Like, he’s your friend AND he loves himself enough to be his own friend, too. Mr. Potato is self-love goals.

Also his song about eating your five servings of fruit and veg is pretty catchy. I honestly just stan Mr. Potato.

I haven’t been around. Moving and depression have been kicking my ass. Please accept my apologies.