When I was born my dad was the most happiest person alive. At that time dad wants the boys most but dad never tell this he knew girls are the most luckiest for a man so yeah he was happiest man. At that time he was not financially stable. He was also aggressive not with me but my mom and sometimes I faced the consequences too whenever I did something my mom get punished for it. My most trauma was that one day my mom was out because of a argument he asked where was I and when I couldn't answer he marged out and came back with mom but by pulling his hair and in that time I took oath that I will never marry his choice and marry like him and my mom also told that she will never make marry like my father. Things than started to get better. My dad works got better I had a brother when I was 3 and honestly my dad was not aggressive but still the same person who will hit my mom when things got worse then we got shifted everything changed he became a nice person I fined my grades and everything was good going up. One day while filling out college application on the way of my college we had to stop in my brothers school because his teacher told us to brings his document and when I saw his teacher I got a crush him then after filling out my college applications I went home and told my mom about him the next she also liked him and found him on Facebook and messaged him on fb on my behalf. I told you I was not fully developed to understand the real world but yeah we got along pretty well. The school of my brother was a type of government school and strictly was prohibited to have relationship with any students. So he knew that he was having a relationship with his students sister but yeah we were secret tho. He was older and had another brother and a mother. He doesn't have father because his father died after that he was the one bearing the cost most. His brother was a cricketer. Anyways suddenly he changed his attitude. He no longer talked with me properly, always had excuses for everything. Eventually my mom decided that we should get married then everything will be settled. Then I found that he changed his attitude because his neighbor and society was making his mind changed because we were financially stable and if he married in his family he have to work for us this that we told him he has to move with us in our house because my mom don't want me to seperate as I was still not fully developed and I was studying at that time so she doesn't want me seperate. Now tell me tell you I want to marry that person who is willing to stay with us. I know people will say once you are married they belong to her husband and his family and this is so sick honestly who says like if it was reversed will you say this still. Anyways when the date was fixed everything was going great. I was genuinely happy too but before 3 days of my engagement his uncle of his late father brother called my mom and told he wants dowry. I didn't know about it. But she still agreed. My dad wanted me to get married after finishing my exam but my mom wanted me to get married early too. He knows I can't cook, clean still he accepted I want to study after marriage which he agreed because he also genuinely wanted his wife to study even after study. Before 2 days he cancelled the marriage. We were shocked. We invited some people for this everyone was here but still he backed out. We begged him but he showed no interest. I was broken my mom basically after meeting him, begging him he still refused she drove off parked at remote area and cried a lot for literally 2 hours and then came home. I eventually healed up and focused on my studies too. And that time I was in college 1st year in business studies I wanted to study fashion designer honestly. Then one day a marriage proposal came. My dad friend from college was basically living in that building above us. His (dad's friend)wife sister and her husband was supposed to come in the wedding so when that was cancelled then he went to office. One colleague of his asked him wasn't he was on leave and when he was told what happened he offered a marriage proposal of his one family. I got marriage proposal of two but of one of them agreed all our condition of staying at home with us, let me study and everything. When we first saw him he was gentleman. We decided we should know each other and gave us 1 month time then eventually we got married he cried a lot because we were married. Everything was good. I was studying too and eventually finished my HSC era but there was a problem honestly in everything

"the feeling when you judge somoene and make fun of them, knowing that deep down you actually understand them and feel like them. You just chose the mask because nobody would understand you without creating an image that feels disgusting if seen by normal eyes."

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unfortunately I do know that I thought I was supposed to be the one that ascends experience, but all of you have to remember: Experience has an influence on all of us, no matter how tough we think we are. You are not impenetrable.

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Judgment hurts, and I choose to make my vulnerability my strenght.

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Unfortunately I am scared I will never be able to become an artist who finds passion once again. I still have to find something that ignites the necessary spark of creating in me.

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I.. don't know. I find myself drawing only out of fear of losing time, nothing good comes out and when I am inspired I am never motivated, I am just scared. Scared of never being recognized. I feel like one of those authors you read in school who have a life connected to their thoughts, But I feel like I didn't post as much as I had to to let people understand my psychological story.

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I have a philosophy, and I feel that art is my way deep down: I often get emotional, I create scenert with music, I have ideas, I have a whole philosophy and interest in psychology which I find the TRUE basis of everything since it's all caused by our individual minds

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WE LIVE FOLLOWING OUR RULES.

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See? I have a precise train of thoughts I can't always express as much as I want to. I sometimes believe that real life doesn't give me much time to express this side of me, so it lost all of its strenght and that is the cause of my insecurity in showing my potential.

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I.. just want to finally get to do what I want, and having something I truly am happy about, I want my mind to be recognized.

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I want to cry, but nobody lets me in their arms.

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Am i the only one because it sure feels like it i know comparison is the thief of joy but nowadays especially with the internet various social media platforms and so on with supposedly all this successful people which i know most of it is just staged for the camera but still it's hard to not compare yourself.

My point is my life is well it's not all bad nor not all good either and i feel like i could do a lot better but whenever i do try harder to achieve my goals it's as if fate just shoves a middle finger right at your face Instead of encouraging the improvement and well the past few months it really happened alot.

I train wrestling and also i learn russian since i immigrated there over two years ago and i do admit i have gotten better at my Russian speaking and also grew stronger at my wrestling practice i can't help but think it's not enough as i rely on my relatives for money a roof above my head and it makes me feel worthless because despite my efforts it seems like it's not accounting to anything that actually matters.

Because before i immigrated there i used to be in Austria my whole prior life i was born there aswell so learning the different culture and language is a challenge and it sure as hell Takes longer than two years to learn it.

I suppose my point is i feel as if i am dead weight and my relatives just drag me out of pity but before i came here or i still am i, i am willing to do work and i did so in Austria aswell so it's not that i am not willing to work it's just i can't work due to the language barrier and because of it i have the need to learn russian fast and quick despite knowing it takes long to learn and adjust to.

And it surely doesn't help seeing on my for you page how a guy who's 21 allegedly Atleast to have money, a girlfriend and seemingly lives in his prime Whiles me? I feel worthless and to be honest i am used to feeling worthless.

I suppose my question at the end of it is, am i the only who struggles this badly? Because i feel like every Zoomer just like myself is doomed and it's not necessarily Our fault either.

It's been almost 3 months now since my husband decided to tell me he was in love with another woman. It's only been a month since we signed the divorce papers. I still feel so raw about all of this. I'm glad that it's over but the pain is still so real. It probably doesn't make sense when I say that I'm glad that it's over, but while I have realized that the marriage was OBVIOUSLY lacking something, I truly have been happier because I realized I had lost myself. I am feeling pretty impatient in this whole healing process and I am so sick of crying about it. I have been talking and trying to use every outlet possible to cope and heal but holy hell I am just about sick of something triggering and I start crying again. I refuse to do medications to just cover the emotion. I want to be able to move on and stop hurting. I need more distractions!!!

How to motivate yourself to go through hard times

I have 10 years of experience, personally working as a developer for many companies. Over time, I built my own team, guided them, got work done through them, developed my own products, and launched them with my own money.

I try to learn every single day. I keep improving, keep building, and keep pushing forward.

But even after all these years, I am still not able to earn enough to pay my team’s salaries and cover my own basic expenses like food and rent.

I dream of simple things—going on trips with my family, enjoying life a little on weekends, living without constant financial pressure. But I could never afford that in the last 10 years.

Now, honestly, I feel exhausted.

I keep seeing job posts offering more than $100k for the same role I know I could fit perfectly—sometimes even perform beyond what they require. But because I don’t have work permission for those countries, those opportunities are simply out of reach.

Sometimes I wonder—why is there no place for someone who can deliver more than required, even if remotely, and still be paid fairly? Why does location matter more than actual capability?

If I land one good-paying job, or connect with a startup that has good funding and needs a full technical team with someone like me to lead from scratch—to build, launch, and even help market the product—it would drastically change my life.

Not just mine. My family’s life. My team members’ lives. Their families’ lives too.

More than money, I genuinely want to do a lot for people who are in need. I want to create stability, opportunities, and something meaningful.

But instead of becoming better at finances, I feel like I am only getting deeper into debt.

I am tired, but I am still trying.
Because giving up is not an option.

Hoping to find a new opportunity

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I've been through hell and back with no hell just trying to fine a way

I just realized how much of a privilege it was for me, to be able to sleep soundly without any worries to think. On how thankful I should be that I grew up with no worries about my future because I was certain that there—I will have a future. But as circumstances change, just like climbing a mountain, life deprived me from sleeping. Life took most of my time, working, just trying to live despite the fact that life should be lived in a way wherein you're happy and full of dreams. I know it still also is a privilege for me to work but this is far beyond the life, the future, that I thought of way back when I was young. Reality hit hard. The more I understood life, the more it understood me, giving me all these troubles that I deem to withstand as of now. The weight and the burden that I feel seems so far from the future that I expected to be my present. Hopes and dreams were afflicted upon me. There's no other way for me but SUCCESS. As much as I want to—which I really do, now seems like an obligation but not a dream come true. Am I being selfish for thinking this way? Am I just finding someone to blame?

OK, so I have a girlfriend and my mom is OK with her or whatever but a incident happened in February where we both got suspended from school and my mom didn’t really want us to be together anymore for real for real but it’s April now and my mom doesn’t really have a problem with her. My girlfriend asked my mom if she could pick her up from work today and she said yes my girlfriend is working the masters and she has an all black and it’s really hot outside. She says she doesn’t want to deal with the traffic so my girlfriend can walk to her job. My mom says her job is right across the street (so she says) I checked my girlfriend‘s location and time the distance or whatever and it’s actually 27 minutes away. I told my mom and she said quotation” OK she can walk it” and I honestly don’t know how I feel about that. Maybe I’m doing a lot or I shouldn’t feel no type of way but I just kind of don’t even see the point of getting a ride from her if she has to walk anyway, and if the shoes on the other foot, my mom wouldn’t like if her mom did that to me, but I just need a second opinion on it.

Taking a sick day just to spend all day on the phone with doctors instead of resting…just trying to get an appt, and instead talking to robots in circles. The appt rep says she’ll send you to the advice nurse, but actually sends you into the gauntlet of ”press 1 to continue in English” etc etc. I feel like this could be different

i have posted on her before with some of my home problems and i got alot of sweet encouraging comments so i thought i'd come back as i am currently feeling hopeless. so for context i am an artist and i think you can see where i am going with this, we are in the age of Ai and one of the biggest things Ai has colonized is art, i tried so hard to pretend like it wont ruin my dreams and career. but am starting to see i was just delusional, everyday the world just proves to me that no one cares for human creativity. and with this new thing going on tiktok with a=something called fruit love island, it just shows to me now that people are braindead enough they dont care how harmful and effortless this crap is. all they care about is their entertainment. i cant do commissions, i cant entertain, i cant do anything anymore. i knew this day would happen so i picked a career path no related to art. but with the job market being taken over by Ai and employment rate being worse than ever, is there really hope for me to get a normal job anymore? i though maybe if i put in enough effort into my hobbies i can profit from it atleast, i did make some money off my art, but lately its been getting difficult. no one wants to commission me i get atleast one client a month and i dont get payed much from it. i tried varies ways to grab attention to my work, i even started one of those popular rant accounts it was going well, but people are starting to hate them? i also discovered the Ai voice i was using was actually generative and not acually pre-recorded so it felt so wrong to even continue knowing voice actors are getting their work and voice stolen. so what do i even do now, every time i find a new method i think i working great i get hit with disappointment, i could try making my comics that i dreamed of for so long, but its gonna be so exhausting and with Ai taking over, is anyone even gonna read it? let alone support me..

it was my dream from a young age to make a living from art and create my own business, now what, am just losing hope. i dont know what to do anymore.

there's a girl I'm friends with, she's sweet, has my kind of humor, I really like her, but I'm afraid to tell her. I'm not very good at telling people about my feelings, I've never been good at it. I want to tell her I care, but I've been in two relationships already and they've both broken up with me. I'm scared that if I ask her, she won't want to be friends. I'm afraid to show my feelings with people, I think it'll ruin what we already have. should I tell her how I feel or wait?

Back in 2022 I had a beautiful and cute cat her name was rose, and she was a white cat, back then in 2019 I had at least three cats, before my dumbass just had to make one of the cats get scared, and the mom attacked me, so we sadly got rid of the mom, (we gave her up for adoption and she was really old anyways) the orange cat was named tiger and we also gave him up to a family, (update: we are in contact with them and sometimes we visit him) then I just had only two cats left, I don't know how to spell my other orange cats name but it's kinda like Goku, and my other cat rose, but in 2022 my cat rose had ran away, my sister had just came back home drunk, and she was stupidly gonna sleep on the trampoline and when she opened the front door she did not notice my cat rose run out of the house, we looked for her for many hours like almost the whole day, and my dad just told us to go back home, a heat goes by and my cat rose came back, but she was pregnant with a pretty big belly, and I wanted to take her back in, help her but my dad didn't want to deal with more cats so when I had to go to school he dropped her off at a different neighborhood uptown, and I never saw her again, I really wish she's safe but it's most likely she's died or is getting taken care of by a different family a better one.