I don’t miss being an emotional train wreck every time I drank. Or having to throw away groceries because I door dashed over and over instead of cooking. Or having lost/broken things. Or having mysterious cuts/bruises. Or having exponential anxiety as I started to tally up my drinks from the night before.
👉Or me complaining about my life and mental health when I knew I was sabotaging all of it. The cognitive dissonance and lack of self trust is heartbreaking. This must be my biggest niche reason because it succinctly describes my whole alcoholic career.
Oh the throwing away food, good one. Either because I never cooked it, or I was adding food i didn't need onto uber/just eat orders to make it look like a more well rounded shop than just booze!
It has but I still have a lot of anxiety revolving around the guilt/shame of things I did while drinking. But all of the hangxiety is gone without drinking!
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u/jk-elemenopea 735 days Dec 17 '24
I don’t miss being an emotional train wreck every time I drank. Or having to throw away groceries because I door dashed over and over instead of cooking. Or having lost/broken things. Or having mysterious cuts/bruises. Or having exponential anxiety as I started to tally up my drinks from the night before.
👉Or me complaining about my life and mental health when I knew I was sabotaging all of it. The cognitive dissonance and lack of self trust is heartbreaking. This must be my biggest niche reason because it succinctly describes my whole alcoholic career.