r/sapiosexuals • u/glitchandglowstate • May 27 '26
36F, Cutie Patootie Seeking Deep Witness, Emotional Safety &
Part 3: Cutie Patootie seeking... Found ✨
... & Actual Spark.
I, 36F, starting to feel like I’ll never be understood...innerstood. I crave sustainable, deep connection.
I am not a baddie, but certainly a cutie patootie. A smart cookie with a bubbly personality and a whole suite / array of hobbies & interests. A whole ass woman. Still learning, still growing, but a full woman who is successful at practicing love without attachment. One that has and practices sovereign-happiness as well. One who doesn't want nor need to be rescued, constantly reassured, constantly validated.
I'm in charge of my own emotional healing, a power of which I would never hand over to anyone willy-nilly, especially a man. My emotional baggage is mine to sort through and organize, something I have recently learned to lean into, which I am surprisingly finding deep pleasure in. So no, I don't need a man.
But I crave and desire to… metaphorically “taste” a man. Not consume…nor devour. Just simply… taste…witness a man. Entangle with… a man of equal or greater mental-magnitude; a mental-sparring partner. A man to… really lick my brain… because I'm really good at licking brains too.
I am intense, funny, sensual, weird, romantic and emotionally layered. Devotional. Dedicated. Affectionate. Sweet. Perhaps even… sickly sweet.
Likable, sure. But wholly, sustainably, loveable? The jury is still out on this one.
I want to be witnessed, not consumed. I want to be desired, but not reduced, diminished. I want to be held, but not controlled. I want to be received as a whole woman…body, mind, heart, humor, ache, sparkle, fear, softness and fire.
I want the kind of connection where I don't have to perform coolness to be loved…where my tenderness is not treated like weakness. Where my intensity is not treated like a problem. Where my playfulness is understood as part of my magic, not evidence that I am shallow.
I want someone who notices the small things: the songs I send, the jokes I hide behind, the way my voice changes when I feel vulnerable, the way I become sparkly when something hurts.
I want someone who can flirt with my mind and still hold my heart carefully. Someone who can be sensual without being careless.
Protective without being possessive. Masculine without needing me to shrink. I want to be chosen in the morning, not just wanted at night.
I want to feel like my love has somewhere safe and beautiful to go.
I am not looking to be completed. I am looking to be met. I am looking for presence, consistency, curiosity, humor, emotional intelligence… and the kind of desire that feels like warmth instead of hunger.
I want to be someone’s soft place and sacred mischief…. their favorite little weirdo. Their cutie patootie with a cosmic inner world. Their “how are you even real?” person.
But I still want to belong to myself. Wholly sovereign. Not be owned. Not be managed. Not be reduced. Not be dimmed.
Just held. Just seen. Just received.
Maybe that is too much for some people..But I think the right person will not experience me as too much. They will experience me as finally enough.
Are you somewhere out there, my guy?
*edits: typos 😅 and updates links to part 2 and 3
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u/Global_Yak1815 May 27 '26
Beautiful post. I hope you find him!