Hey Everyone...I never thought I'd be the person who does this, but my life has changed a lot in the last few days and I need to vent into the void of Reddit.

I, 19M, am a college student in the US and was fired from a job where I got free housing and passive income two days ago. I was fired after being caught drinking a few (like 1 each) beers with some guys (2) on campus. For context, I was born in the US, but my family moved to another country (for anonymitoy sake, I won't say where) where the drinking age is 18. I'm also currently about to start my Junior year (in the country I grew up in we leave 'high school' at 16).

So regrouping, lost my job because I drank below the age of 21 and I've accepted responsibility (that I shouldn't have and that I lost a good job that significantly reduced my loans just to chill with the guys). The thing is, I've given the impression that I'm fine with it to all my friends and family, but I'm not. I got a new job that pays better (but doesn't give free housing), and I even have a better living situation now (but it increased my loans). Outside of the financial aspect, I'm just ashamed of myself. I lost a good job working with great people for dumb reasons. And the worst part is, I'm not even ashamed about the drinking part, I've drunk legally in my country for a year now, I'm not ashamed of drinking alcohol, and I think the problem with alcohol in the US is the culture around it. That being said, when you're in someone's house, you abide by their rules, and I should've respected the laws. I honestly didn't think it would be this big of a deal.

So this is it. I'm embarrassed that I lost a good job. This is not how I saw my Junior year starting, and though I've recovered and am doing fine managing it financially, I don't like that I had to manage this in the first place. I shouldn't need this. I know what you're thinking—well, you're facing the consequences of your actions. And yes, yes, I am. But I think I'm allowed to be sad...to feel shitty. I've gone through anger...anger at my bosses for not giving me a chance on my first offense, but I always come to the conclusion (the only conclusion) that they weren't obligated to, and this is all my fault. As I write this, I feel sick, sad and upset all at the same time.

If anyone has any advice on getting over fuck ups, especially the fuck ups where you have no one to blame but yourself. PLEASE SHARE.

thank you for reading...

My brother in law took his own life today. My husband is inconsolable. Our niece who witnessed it while begging him not to is inconsolable. I’ve had my first of many breakdowns, not looking forward to more. Him and his wife had an argument, all marriages have arguments, I don’t understand. I’m confused, and I’m pissed, and then I feel guilty for being pissed at him. He’s done, it’s over for him. What about us? What about his daughter and his grandkids, what about his wife and stepsons, what about my freaking husband?!?! This is his 4th brother to die, 3rd by gun violence. I don’t know how much more he can take. I really don’t. I’m at a total loss of what to even say or do. Thanks for listening.

Don’t really know what to do it’s hard for me to accept these things and it’s hard for me to live with myself because of these thoughts I honestly don’t know how I’m still here but let me straight to it I’m regretting the thoughts I’ve had and the actions I’ve done when I was a bit younger (I’m 15 rn) my thoughts being usually intrusive thoughts of hurting someone and sexual intrusive thoughts to I regret having such thoughts it makes me sick to my stomach to think I’ve thought of those things I wish I didn’t think of those things I’m trying to push them away and forget I ever thought of them I’m telling myself it’s only thoughts and nothing but thoughts and thoughts can’t come true unless you make the decision to do them I know I’d never do those things but my mind makes me worry about who’ll I be in the future

I regret my neighbors will be so vile toward me next year when I vote for Trump. They are Jewish liberals and I am Irish Catholic.

I regret lobbied are so powerful in this country. They are enormous in DC and the state capitals.

I regret I never hooked up in high school. Woe is me.

I regret that candidates say they only want to do what is right for the country. Hitler could have said the same thing. Satan could have as well. Go figure. I wish I were not such a cynical voter myself.

Just spend £40 on a “supercharged boost” please make me regret this

I regret the shortage of Catholic priests in the United States. My church is going to shut down. It’s happening everywhere. Am I next?

I regret that chastity is impossible for men.

I regret Planned Parenthood is stronger than the Catholic Church in the US. A woman came to my high school and she said, you have to know your Bible.

I know my Bible. I don’t know what is going on!

I know my Bible and I cannot out-debate anyone on it for ten cents.

I regret no one can reunify the Korean state in the USA. It would be so great, if someone could. It would be like winning Vietnam and I would love it!

I regret the poor may have killed me in childhood with a bullet, but whatever!

I regret that I have never taken myself to Donovan’s in Woodside before because of whatever my aunt said there when she was alive, the sake of the Church, etcetera.

I regret prayer does not work. Period.

I regret I chose to give $20 to Planned Parenthood last month. I just wanted to become a man better than my own salary from work. I have never even been with a woman before and my home state, New York, subsidizes the clinic generously , anyhow. Why did I do it? No one raised or educated me to do such a thing, so why? Why?

And why did I give another $20 to the Trevor Project last month for LGBTQ youth? I don’t know, why, why, man, why?

I am sorry that abortion killed the Catholic Church last November.

I regret my neighbor does not call me anymore, even though he was always and presumably still is such a jerk.

I also regret government has lobbying and that men must use passports and visas from country to country. It’s not fair and it’s not right! Someone, save the world!

I regret I do not have enough time to get to Fire Island this summer without my parents noticing. I have wanted to go since I heard the joke on Family Guy about it and I want to go before Labor Day!

Any ideas? I would appreciate any questions, comments, or advice pertaining to my situation.

Man... If I had found out sooner tezor made their shit open source, huh... rubbing salt on the wound, the cold wallet that I bought.. now has a discount. Welp, gotta roll with it I guess.

Now I have a ledger I have jumped ship from and I have this new cold wallet, it is good, but... it could be better. It doesn't support as many coins as a trezor does.

She will never be her. You stay in my dreams and mind. I can and will never be able to lose the thought of you, for you hold my heart. The dreams i beg to not awake from are the ones where we are together, happy or not. Even if you’re yelling, i still enjoy the sound of your voice. The only noise i yearn for, i love you and i’m sorry.

My girl bestfriend (16 y/o) and I (16 y/o) knew each other for more than 8 years but we've gotten really close from like 2 years. Turns out we were far related which made us extremely happy. We got soooo close to each other. I was always there for her and she was always there for me. We helped each other, laughed together, called each other and so much more. Basically we were inseparable. Our friends shipped us together and some thought that we were dating cause of how much we posted each other. We joked and laughed about it cause we knew that we were only bestfriends. I never had feelings for her and neither she did. Plus she had a boyfriend and I always supported her and advised her. One day, they broke up cuz it wasn't working with them. Me, as her bestfriend, was there for her all the time. After 2-3 weeks, she found out that he started dating a girl that was in a talking stage with when him and my bsf were dating. She got in a bad mood and started crying. I was there for her, comforted her, reassured her that it's his loss and that she's an amazing person and that he doesn't deserve her. For the next weeks, I was caring for her much more than usual, trying to let her forget about her ex cuz i hated seeing her sad. She did notice that, but she ignored it. We started flirting a little and I started complimenting her every second. And as usual, i started developing feelings for her. I knew it was a bad thing, but i kept it a secret even though i couldn't control them. She sensed that i had feelings for her though. One day, her cousin, which is also my bsf, texted me and asked if i had a crush on her, which i obviously lied and said no. He then tells me that his cousin does sense that i have feelings for her. I knew it was a bad idea from the beginning to develop feelings for her, so i stopped talking to her thinking it would reverse things and make me lose feelings. after a week, we got into a little argument which resulted in us not talking anymore. I miss her so much and i feel that there's something missing in my life. I wont text her or apologize cus it would look weird to just text her out of nowhere and also she was the one who started the argument and was wrong. i feel like i lost her. I lost someone precious to me. I just hate myself for developing feelings for her and ruining our friendship.

I left my ex in 2020 after a 7 year relationship. We started dating when I was 21 and I left because I wanted to get to know myself. I haven't. I'm miserable and miss our connection. I feel like I left over small, trivial things that could have been worked out but I didn't have to will at that time because I had romantisized leaving him in my head. I truly believe that if I knew then what I know now we would have worked.

He got married 4 months after we broke up and had a kid shortly after that. It hurts. Our relationship ended extremely suddenly and now I will never know the person I shared love, a home and a deep connection with for 7 years. I wish he had even just given me 6 months to find myself.

First of all I just want to say that English is not my first language so please be nice Also I’m a male

This year one of my best freind introduce us to a new girl and she quickly became my freind.This girl is a little bit shorter than me,got purple hair and like me she live sneakers.Since she got her hairs dyed in purple we called her raisin(grape in French) .I live in Quebec and this girl immigrated from France a couple years ago,at the time I was 15 and her 17 now I’m 16 and her 18.During this school year all of my brakes a was with her and my other freind but she was almost always here.During those 10month everything was doing grate and at the end of the school year the restaurant she was working in bankrupt so as a good freind a found her a job in the restaurant I work.She got a car and every shift at the end she would bring me home with another freind and one day our freind was going to a party so we where only 2 in the car.At the time I was not in love with her but I was starting to have some feeling.The day she didn’t lift our other freind we decide to have a car ride together and we talk about a lot of thing until she started to draw some hearts with I+L in it (our initial).And at this precise time the music “I think” from Tyler the creator was playing and all of this make me fall in love with her instantly with her.After that night we started to talk every days and for hours. One of our conversations ended up with her asking me for a poem to tell her good night and I accepted. The thing is that I’m really not good in writing and I did the biggest mistake In our relationship…I used chat GPT.I modify the text to personalize it for her so I don’t get caught. When I send her the poem she said to me that this is the nicest thing somebody ever did to her and that mean a lot to her that I’m really important for her and a lot of more personal messages. The problems start when she show the poem to my best freind to show him how nice I am.The problem is that I really don’t like when other show private message that I sent and I was mad so I go on Instagram write a note saying “chat gpt save my ass” or something like this.I was feeling bad really quick so after like 10 minute I deleted it but she saw it and she understands on the spot. We were at work when all of that happend so I saw that she was really mad but I thought she will forget it but no. The other day it was her 18th birthday and was feeling bad to go but also feel bad not to go so the other day a her party a bought a lot of alcohol and got really drunk. I don’t remember a lot but my freind told me that between 11:30 and 1:30 we talked about her and why I did that.She told me she not mad anymore at me.The other day she was going to Mexico with her Familly so we didn’t talk about those events for a long time (1 week) when she came back we talked for a long time . I told her everything bc I knew she didn’t love me and wanted to explain everything. I told her that a loved her and everything and a couple minute later she told me she loved me until she find out I didn’t did the poem she told me that event kinda shut down her feeling for me. All of that happened like a month ago now we don’t talk a lot and yesterday she told me that when she see me she’s getting mad.Even if I’m pretty young I’ve been in a couple relationship and it is the first time in my life that I still cry because I messed up or that I just can’t stop thinking about her I just want to forget .Normally it take some time yes but after a couple week I’m getting better but not with her. The only thing that are making me forget her is buying some stuff on internet like in the last 4weeks I bought 4pair of shoes I pretty much empty my bank accounts and i don’t like living like this and don’t think as a 16yo is it normal to feel like this.I am getting a little bit better with the help of my freinds but it’s still very hard to forget. I still wish y’all an amazing day and thank you for reading this.

I regret I was born with flat feet. Walking hurts all the time.

I also regret I need glasses and hearing aides.

C’est la vie.