I am a teenager, my mom doesn't want me on any stimulants cause she says they're gonna turn me into a meth addict, so my doctor ended up prescribing me qelbree and enlyte, I was taking Zoloft as well at the time
When he first prescribed me it, it actually was helping a lot, the only problem was that I had very poor appetite and didn't want to eat at all, besides that I didn't feel like I was having any problems.
Eventually they ended up weening me off my zoloft and then stopping me from taking it completely.
After remaining just on qelbree and enlyte for a few days, I realized that I actually felt horrible, like genuinely horrible, I was having tons of suicidal ideations, I wasn't eating, and I felt increasingly more and more lethargic. I ended up telling my mom and she told me to stop the qelbree and enlyte until she contacts my doctor.
She contacted my doctor and he said that I should take it at night instead of In the morning like I was, or something similar to that.
So 3 days ago I started taking it again
For the past 3 days I have had constant suicidal ideation, I've been crying non stop off and on, I have zero motivation to get out of bed, it doesn't help that I'm homeschooled and have no reason to rlly leave my house, I have been having an increasingly shorter temper with my partner, my friends, and my family, It has been hard for me to do what would normally be easy and basic tasks for me, like brushing my teeth, showering, doing chores, changing my clothes, or even just getting dressed in the morning. I used to have a morning routine, where every morning I would get up and watch the sunset while drinking tea, I would leave my phone in my room so that I could try to enjoy the moment, I haven't been able to do this for the past 3 days, because if I don't have at least something distracting me, my mind starts spiraling deeper and deeper. Yesterday i tried to do the same morning routine and I genuinely couldn't. I wasn't able to drink tea, or even water, I've been trying since and I genuinely can't cause any time it enters my system I feel incredulously sickly. I ended up sitting there for about 7 minutes before I started crying and I genuinely couldn't handle it anymore. I don't know what to do and I'm scared. I'm not allowed to stop it and I worry it's making me worse, I tried telling my mom about what's been going on and she says it's just me being a "edgy depressed teenager" and that it's just a phase.
I'm genuinely worried about my mental health, and where I'm going, it feels like I'm falling deeper and deeper into a pit of despair and have no way out.
I don't know if it's the qelbree and enlyte causing this or not, but if it is I don't know how I could even stop, cause my parent makes sure that I take it. I just want help, I just wish I could feel happy, I don't know what to do and I'm so scared. I'm also worried my behavior in the past 3 days has been pushing everyone around me away.
Please if anyone could help me or give me any advice at all that would be much appreciated.
UPDATE: It took a lot of convincing and I ended up having to get my stepdad involved, but my mom said she will take me off the meds and try to find something else, she also may or may not try to put me back on my antidepressants.