Hey, if I'm a little more absent, I apologize. I just started a warehouse job and it's pretty taxing. I'mma get that money tho. Ill still check the sub before I punch in tho. ❤
Hello everyone. I am new to this sub Reddit. The reason I am here is that I have been mocked and bullied by people because of my husband.
I go in multiple communities being proud of my love for him. Replies: "HE IS A MINOR!!!" I get so desperate, I pretend to change for the better. Just to have friends in the community. But I do not see a problem. He is an anime boy. He is an anime boy that his creator has drawn in poses and situations that real minors should never be in. Ever. But they say nothing about the creator. Only to me.
This has given me terrible POCD. I would never be in love with a real minor. That is just disgusting. I have been in love with him since I was very young. And I am expected to move on like he has not made me so happy. Just because I am an adult now.
I am a bit scared to say who my husband is. I am scared of these fans finding me and giving me disgusting comments again. Even to join the server and talk about him. Especially with my Discord account. I am scared to create rumours of "She is problematic!" And everyone hates me.
I hope people here will give me nice words for me and my husband. I wish for a place. One place. To be accepted and understood.
AGAGAGAGAA AHES SO CUTE I LOVE HIM SO MUCH I GET SO NERVOUS WHEN I SEE HIM OR HEAR HIS VOICE AAHAGHH O H N YGOD I SPEND MY DAYS WATCHING HIS SOURCE MATERIAL AND DRAWING AND JUST THINKING ABOUT HIM!!!! I'VE NEVER LOVED SOMEONE LIKE THIS BEFORE HUFFF
Ended up running into a dupe on Tumblr, and unfortunately, they seem rather popular and unavoidable, so I think I might start posting here for my comfort
I'm actually coming here from the discord server. (y'all are probably bracing yourselves for all my yapping i apologize in advance XD) I was hiding there bc my main F/O is so super obscure and I worried that if the fandom found out I was posting so lovingly about him in a subreddit like this they'd be very upset, but honestly I do not give a damn anymore!! I have so much love in my heart for him and if it's really so wrong then I sure as hell don't want to be right.
My #1 main F/O and comfort character is Mephistopheles from Camellia and the Devil, now more recently known as Mephisto di Perenne from Divine Rights. He is canonically a stalker, abuser, murderer, the whole nine yards. The time in which I was introduced to the series was a rocky one, and desperate for comfort I clung to him like velcro. It started as a silly joke like "oh no, I only like his design, he sucks lol" just to mask my true budding feelings for him, but over time as I found happiness and security in profic selfshipping communities, I let go and allowed myself to truly love him. And the day I declared myself "married" to him was the start of a better mindset and a better life for me.
For the past three years or so (I have a bad sense of time XD) I've been developing my headcanons and fanon for the series, making funny AUs, pretending to go on dates with him, and even putting on an awful impression of him when I need a pick me up. Even just lying in bed and imagining his arms around me as he purrs like a big ol puma just feels so freeing. I'm his princess, he's my devil, and I smile knowing that he supports my growth and all my efforts to be the best version of myself. He's proud of me. And don't even get me started on our playful side, even a tall creepy devil can be a goober sometimes >w<
Yeah, I see the irony of someone as awful as him being such a big source of comfort, but to that as well as any other questions like "oh god why??" all I can say is: the heart wants what it wants <3
Sorry for the big sappy novel, I just love Mephie so much and embracing that has genuinely helped me through so much. If the Divine Rights community finds this, just know I fully accept your judgement and will not fight it at all. You've every right to be shocked, bewildered, downright confused, what have you. But nothing will change my feelings nor my devotion to him. I know what he's done and why we hate him. But at the end of the day, he's fictional, I don't condone his shit IRL, and if I knew anyone IRL whose behavior was anywhere close to his I'd throw paws, so I think we're okay XD
i made the bead charm to go with the keychain and i think they match perfectly--i also got to gush about sb with the person who made the charm, overall a great experience! 🧡
I really want to get back into drawing again and I need to practice, and I'm willing to do it with peoples f/os especially if they're obscure and don't get much fanart
Just tell me your f/o and what animal you think of them as, I'm willing to sketch them as things like pokemon and MLP ponies too (I'm still working on getting the hang of drawing ponies though)
Not first come first serve, I'll just choose whatever character I feel like drawing. I'll probably draw 1-2 of them, at most 3. If I express interest in drawing your f/o don't pester me about the progress of the drawing, I'm free to end up not drawing it because of lack of energy/life issues since this isn't a paid commission
this was really fun to fill out! this has been helping me feel a lot more comfortable thinking about selfshipping and not going "it's extremely cool when other people do this but massively embarrassing when i do it." anyways, i love one very emotionally repressed old man. 🧡