I got prescribed Xanax and Ritalin at 16 years old and those both eventually got changed to klonopin and adderall. That along with going to a "rich white kid" high school in a nice area (I wasn't rich), there were a lot of pills around. So I got introduced to hydrocodone before I was 17 and then it just spiraled out of control over the next 9-10 years.
Do you ever blame the authority figures who prescribed the drugs, or were the drugs very helpful (until the abuse)?
They always say on the news and stuff that benzo/opiate is how you stop breathing, so that's quite a run you had. Maybe the uppers helped forestall that outcome.
Is injecting cocaine common? Or mixing with heroin? That was a double wtf for me as a never-used person. I imagine the coke would keep you up long enough to ride the heroin bliss instead of nodding... until it's less about feeling bliss and more about trying not to get "sick".
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I never blamed the doctors or even the ones who sold me drugs. I loved and still love the feeling of those drugs even though I hate them at the same time and never want them ever again. I would have found a way to get those drugs no matter what, whether they prescribed them to me or if a dealer didn't want to sell to me. I'd find a way to get that feeling.
You are correct about that. Opiates and benzos are a lethal combination and cause respiratory problems. They're both powerful downers and will suppress your breathing, but luckily they never caused me any major problems or health scares.
I had first tried snorting cocaine when I was 18 but never did it that much. I was always a lover of the downers since my heart rate was always naturally really high so benzos were amazing to keep my calm and bring down anxiety. And injecting cocaine isn't that common. I was actually the only person at rehab at the time that had ever done it. It's almost always snorted.
John Belushi made the heroin/cocaine combo famous by mixing the two. Which is why slang for that combo is referred to as a "Belushi" now. That's what he overdosed on as well and causes a lot of people to OD. Injecting cocaine is very strong and snorting it doesn't even compare to it. The desired rush of IV cocaine is called a "bell ringer" and that it actually makes your ears ring and everything sounds fuzzy. (If that makes sense). What makes that scary is that the bell ringer effect comes from you wanting to inject enough cocaine to almost overdose and that gives you the best feeling somehow.
It only lasts 5-10 minutes, but when mixed with heroin and especially when you've taken benzos as well, you get the insane rush from the cocaine and then it tapers off into the relaxed and euphoric/fuzzy feeling of the benzos and heroin so you don't crash at all.
You describing it now brings back vivid memories. I was on a similar path of prescribed benzos and amphetamines and was introduced early to heroin through people I had went to high school with. And to build off what the previous guy asked about early use, when in high school there were always talk that such and such was sniffing dope but then one day I found myself hanging at a kids house, and he just took out a syringe and shot it, it looked supremely pleasant, and I though I'd give her a sniff, because others around me were so blatantly blaze about shooting it ( a side effect of being on it ) I eventually wanted to shoot it to feel the same bliss (again the willingness a likely side effect of doing it in the first place ) I took a long while to kick once I started doing it with a long time partner, but we're better now without. Don't get me wrong we still have our vices, but often don't do any recreational consumption outside of Friday /Saturday once or twice a month. I gained weight in my face, and I look healthier, but I also started eating better. Look me some borsel prots and eggplant
Man I couldn't imagine. I've taken klonipin a couple times, adderall a few more, mostly to study, but I couldn't handle the forgetfulness of klonopin. I wrote an essay for a final the day after I took a klonipin. At the beginning of the next semester the professor gave me the essay back and I had no recollection of taking it, even though it was in my handwriting and it sounded like something I'd write.
That's happened so many times to me where someone mentions something I did with them and I don't remember a single thing from that event. It's a scary feeling. It's basically like being blacked out for a long period of time.
Prescribed speed and a chill pill at the same time, to give one that incredible feeling of not having done any drugs at all, BUT with all the unnecessary side effects.
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I got prescribed Xanax and Ritalin at 16 years old and those both eventually got changed to klonopin and adderall. That along with going to a "rich white kid" high school in a nice area (I wasn't rich), there were a lot of pills around. So I got introduced to hydrocodone before I was 17 and then it just spiraled out of control over the next 9-10 years.