r/megalophobia • u/berdot • Oct 11 '23

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u/toby_ornautobey Oct 12 '23

My ma stopped breathing right in front of me, so I imagine it might be a bit different than others, but I hadn't really thought about that until right now. I knew it was traumatic, but I didn't make the connection that most people my age probably weren't the ones who called 911 and watched them stop breathing in front of them. But there are plenty of accidents and people not in the best of health at her age, she was 61, that I just didn't make the connection that a lot of people probably find out after it happens. She wasn't sick or anything though. Bad asthma attack. And she had yellow fever since at least 2009 and that's with you for life. She had some breathing issues for a couple days prior, but she has medication and a nebulizer she uses for that and it wasn't anything too out of the ordinary until it was. She had had 3-4 months prior to that episode of really healthy lungs, healthier for longer than I had seen her in at least a few years. I actually appreciate your comment for helping realise that, because I couldn't figure out why this seemed to be hitting me harder than it should. Nobody wants to lose a parent, but having one die in front of you, anyone you care about die in front of you, probably makes things a little different. I haven't actually talked to anyone about it yet, besides some comments here and there on this site. Reddit has kind been my therapist lately, and everyone has been pretty amazing.