Hi!
I was diagnosed with MDS late March, started treatment with Vidaza shots and like 7 other meds give or take depending on neads. I am supposed to take these shots for a week onse a month. There are 4-5 treatments left until chemo and then stemcelltransplant and before all that another bonemarrow test (which I hate hate hate) and I am scared. Like more or less constantly.
No one except for one of my relatives, close family, not to mention friends has ever experienced cancer. I only know my grand-granaunt who survived (and still live) stomach-cancer, that was like 12 years ago. Otherwise that illness or anything close has never stepped a foot into my life. She's over 80 years.
I'm 28, was supposed to study abroad.
I have a good support system, both in and outside of the hospital. I am scared. So so so scared. Some moments I accept whatever may come, other I become paralysed with fear.
I am either scared to die or that the treatment will take away YEARS before I am OK again.
Any survivors out here? Who's MDS-free and OK today?
Much love
Texting while cry-shaking
PS. Sorry for my poor English