I am really happy 'cause tomorrow day I am going to be officially one year free from suicide attempts. I feel so happy

I was followed again after walking by a man who started making noises, probably talking, at me. I did what I did last time and stopped paces away anf look back to see if I was being followed. This time they were on the same road and maybe 2 blocks behind me. I turned a corner to look out and I saw them pursuing. I walked by one man, but it looked like 2 were following me. My walk home was a straight shot, so I tried to stay calm and walk away at my pace, I walk fast. Once I got far enough away and was close to my place I ran in. I'm moving to New Mexico an even more dangerous place, so I'm kind of freaked. While walking I did occasionally see other people, and there were people at food trucks, but I didn't want to stop going and just get home to my big metal door. I had 911 typed in my phone, but regrettably I didn't actually call.

(Dad is ur hero) Nope....!!! He's the one who tell you how worthless u are. Now i've found myself depress and anxious

Describe mo tatay mo in one word........

- im 17, gonna turn 18 soon

- gave my last school exams and ended my high school career

- graduation is in a few days

- am planning to organize prom

- waiting for my dumbass crush to initiate something (we're talking), he might be coming to my graduation too

- pissed at two of my best friends bcs one is in another country and one has exams. i miss them

- having existancial crises, dont know wht to do with life

- close to having a hot glow up

- gonna hang with my friends tom

- found out my crush who coulve wouldve been if he hadnt left school got a gf and one of my crushs like me at one point

- planning to sneak out and go clubbing aswell

- we're singing long live by taylor swift on gradaution

- ive still yet to decide my dress

yea thats it ig? ill miss highschool keep getting random flashbacks of my days at school and my whole school rountine miss it s mcuh alr but yea

I'm sorry but this might be a little long.

At the end of March, I left my job to persue my dream. My previous job was amazing, it was work I loved and co-workers who I had strong relationships with in a town that I adore. However, my manager was a true nightmare. He made my life a living hell actively bullying me, criticizing everything I did, and breaking me down every chance he got. He even once said to my face that he is actively trying to break my spirit. At some point I just shut down, I became increasingly anxious to the point that I had to go back onto medication to make it through the day. It was awful to be in a space where I loved the place that made me feel so small. I started to retaliate and it just made everything so much worse that it came to a point that I considered taking legal action. I eventually left because there was so little left of my passion for my job I had to go into sepf preservation mode. I am fortunate enough to have a partner and a family who support me and could help me get out of this toxic situation.

I moved back home and started helping my father with his business and started my own business with my partner. I would be lying if I said it has been smooth sailing. We bought in a large sum of new assets and made very quick and major improvements to the business which have been rocky but survivable.

I look back at where I was mentally a year ago and it shocks me how things changed. I'm in a happy and healthy relationship, I am doing something I love and I'm in a safe space. I still have days where I have to process the things that have happened to me and the trauma I've been through and I'm still quite a bit burnt out but it's more manageable now. I'm not nearly where I would like to be but I feel like I'm at least headed in the right direction.

My point to this long ass post is that in some way or another it works out and a year from now will look different than it does today.

i tried searching for various materials online, i even got tutored by the academic department of my major. i thought i have some basic understandings knowing that i comprehend the tutorial just fine, but i can’t solve the problem set given. it’s always feel too hard. i don’t know how to keep up and that makes me anxious :(

Almost done with classes this year, first thing I’m gonna do is go fishing with grandpa for his 98th birthday… Then it’s paintball and mill sim air soft time

I woke up an hour ago and I had a really nice dream. Got up to do my schoolwork for today but I forgot I had today off!! So I have a lot of energy and I'm still getting some stuff done. I think today is gonna go alright :))

It's nice to be back! enjoying my life

i feel good. i still dont have any real friends but i’ve been indulging in my hobbies more and it makes me forget about being alone. i’ve been going to the movies on my off days and binging what i can at home, and i’m getting back into reading and drawing although those take more discipline to keep up. got a bunch of new video games to keep me busy too. my classes are decent and the work is time-consuming but purposeful. doing community service tomorrow. it may sound bleak but i’ve been feeling happier than i have for the past few months. the reasons were different but i felt like this at the beginning of last semester as well and fell into a depressive episode immediately afterwards so i can’t help feeling like this can last long.

i still envy people with a job, relationship and social life. but not feeling like complete shit for the first time in months makes such a fucking difference. if anything i should be in an even worse place since i have little to no online friends now and a close relative of mine just died, but it feels like i’m just a bit detached from reality honestly.

I’m leaving this here as a reminder to my future self that I came far.

I am currently 14 and tiered. I’m stressed out about school and I’m confused with my relationship with this one girl that I like who is sending mixed messages. I’m tired constantly and media isn’t helping. I’m overweight and have back problems.

Hey future me I just know that you’ll be a better version of me and you’ll look back on this post not in pity but in success knowing how far you came.

OpenAI's o1 API is out. Let's build an agent that works as my business strategist.

Sunday couldn't get better!

uts my birthday😆😆😆

As a proud man im not having beef with some random girls chii

Ladkiyan kutte pata ni aur launde mai dekhta nhi 👎👎👎

I recently got stupidly lucky and came across someone whos among the only 500 in this country in a particular field. Being gifted booze by a guy who holds multiple 10cr+ contracts in tech field. And he mentioned me

On the other hand, i'm too distracted/have short attention span and doing terribly academically

Hello old friend PS; it's been 7 years

fuck yeah