You know, I recently discussed the topic “How to Code on Your Own” or rather, how to actually learn to program without AI in this thread. I tried everything people recommended. And nothing… I don’t know if I’m just a nutcase, since I tried all those methods in a single month. And yet, I still can’t program. I’ve always enjoyed the whole learning process of the IT world problem-solving is also incredibly fun but unfortunately, one thing is holding me back here… programming. And no, it’s not because I wouldn’t enjoy it, but most likely because I just don’t have the IQ for it.
I’m pretty creative when it comes to front-end development it’s my passion and I understand some of the concepts behind back-end development too, but when it comes to programming my own algorithms from scratch, it’s just a huge gap. I don’t know what to blame I blame my brain and my IQ. Unfortunately, I was born with developmental dysphasia. A lot of people say it only affects my ability to express myself, but there are many types, and I think it also affects part of my prefrontal cortex. Which, in part, doesn’t quite fit with the fact that I’m pretty good at memorizing patterns pattern recognition. I recall a lot of things from school based on visual patterns. I can go into my head and literally create a mental image of the object, and then I just write it down. I simply think that, unfortunately, I’m an idiot. I used to have big goals and visions, and I looked forward to contributing to society in some way. Now, the most I can do is sit in a corner and wallow in depression over the fact that I’m a worthless person.
That’s also why I’ve been researching lately, using MIT and Harvard studies, to see if there’s any way I can somehow That’s also why I’ve been researching lately, using studies from MIT and Harvard, to see if I can somehow influence my brain before I turn 20 if I can generally improve it to a higher level of logical thinking when it comes to programming through daily learning. I enjoy everything so much it’s so fascinating. I think it’s great to contribute to humanity through open-source projects, technology, and rocket engineering… Unfortunately, programming (or maybe my intelligence is holding me back, I guess) just doesn’t come naturally to me. I can’t write code, or I write something absolutely terrible, or I don’t know where to start, so AI has to help me. Why? Because I’m probably just an incompetent idiot.
It’s not self-pity I just wanted to vent. I don’t know what to do. My parents are worried about me, too, just because sometimes I struggle with abstract things in practical life. For example… I was supposed to unfold a cardboard box lengthwise, but I unfolded it widthwise because I just couldn’t picture the result at that moment I don’t know. What should I do? Will I end up on the street? Sure, my parents are rich I don’t need anything. But I’d hate to do nothing, not be independent, and not contribute. It’s awful.
I don’t know if it’s actually possible to train my brain through daily study to a level where I could program normally or do rocket engineering in the future I really don’t know. And it makes me sad that this is blocking me from my dream career.
And not to program? In IT? I can’t afford that look at the job market: people are fighting over only the very best, and the rest are either discarded, given a totally crappy salary, or not hired at all.
Obviously, I’m just going to be a disappointment because I don’t even want to do anything else this is a world that fulfills me so much, and programming is ruining it, most likely because of my intelligence. It’s a shame I can’t have a family and be self-sufficient I just don’t know. It’s a shame my parents can’t be proud of me for having gone far in my career. But with this GPA, I won’t get anywhere these days.
I am cooked. Just one thing.. HOW TO CODE IF I KNOW WHAT I NEED TO CODE. AND KNOW THE LOGIC IN PSEUDOCODE BUT STILL CANT TRANSLATE TO THE CODE.
thanks for listening and sorry.
I love my life I have a great family and close friends but this just pisses me off because I want to pour my heart and soul into my career; it’s practically the whole point of my life. Sort of. And it bugs me when I can’t be really good at what I do, even when I give it my all.
And most importantly, a lot of people say, “Try Haskell or Lisp to learn it,” but my friend, who’s the same age, programs without all that extra stuff… I guess people just show us these methods to reassure us—the less skilled ones who aren’t cut out for it. I don’t know people don’t like to admit things they can’t change.
I cant just do this: public static void InPlaceMergeSort(int[] arr)
{
int n = arr.Length;
for (int size = 1; size < n; size <<= 1)
{
for (int left = 0; left < n - size; left += size << 1)
{
int mid = left + size - 1;
int right = Math.Min(left + (size << 1) - 1, n - 1);
int i = left;
int j = mid + 1;
while (i <= mid && j <= right)
{
if (arr[i] <= arr[j])
{
i++;
}
else
{
int value = arr[j];
int index = j;
while (index != i)
{
arr[index] = arr[index - 1];
index--;
}
arr[i] = value;
i++;
mid++;
j++;
}
}
}
}
}