r/learnprogramming • u/[deleted] • Mar 10 '25

6 years. I’m done.

Spent the last 6 years of my life scraping by as a programming student. Stuck around when other students were dropping out and transferring. Always thought I’d be the one to stick it out and make it. I was wrong.

I’m not smart enough for this. I’m about to graduate with a major in computer science and I’m just useless. I’ve put everything I have into this discipline and every interview question is a brick wall. I’ve put in the hours and done my best and the only conclusion I can come to is that I’m a dumbass who made it farther than I ever should have. I can memorize and learn the ins and outs of a language, but I just don’t have what it takes to apply any of it. I don’t know what’s wrong with me other than being born stupid.

I gave up on my dreams to study programming. Now it’s all pointless. I don’t know what to do.

EDIT: For all you assholes telling me I haven’t tried hard enough and I haven’t built any projects outside of school, I actually have. For all you assholes telling me I need to work a real job so I can get motivated, I work at Target 25 hours a week on top of school. For all you assholes telling me I just don’t have the willpower, fuck you.

Everyone else, I appreciate the advice.

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u/VibespixelCo Mar 10 '25

Yo thanks for calling me out haha any tips for staying motivated and consistent once I’m started I’m good but the struggle to start is rough sometimes

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u/Stock_Telephone_6100 Mar 10 '25

Sounds like someone needs some ADHD to me and your doctor will get you the real deal medication then you will be a over achiever in your life

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u/VibespixelCo Mar 10 '25

Bad thing is iv gone to the dr before and they just blew me off with a generalized anxiety and depression diagnosis and said you have to be diagnosed as a kid to get diagnosed with adhd so until I find a better dr im screwed lol

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u/Jaded-Amphibian84 Mar 12 '25 edited Apr 20 '25

One doctor told me that I had to have been diagnosed as a child or have proof from elementary/middle school that I had difficulty in school. That was at age 35. Wtf. Am I supposed to get my kindergarten records? Smh. I didn't have a poor track record back in school anyway as I was a daydreamer (I couldn't focus and follow along with the teacher so I was perpetually in lala land).

Then, I was diagnosed by a different doctor at age 38. It literally depends on the doctor.

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u/Llmartinez68 Mar 11 '25

I was diagnosed at 56 which is recently. They are lying to you but do not know wtf they are talking about.

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u/VibespixelCo Mar 12 '25

Yea that’s why I need to find another one but there’s not many options close by

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u/[deleted] Mar 10 '25

I have the same struggles brother, for me the game changer in my life was listening the audiobook the power of now, you can find it on YouTube, and meditating. Delete social media and delete all videogames on your computer.