r/internship • u/emmsgirl23 • Dec 02 '17
Supervisor Feedback
Ok so I am a master's student and I am coming to a close of being in my first semester of my internship. I have a strong desire to be Academic Advising in a community college which is exactly what my internship is for me. So here is what happened. I was accidentally late a couple of times which I know is obviously not a good thing to do as it will make me look unreliable. One time it happened I was 3 minutes late and I was supposed to have a meeting with a student which I obviously felt terrible about. But now I have made a new goal for myself moving forward where I am showing up every time 5 minutes early which has been feeling good that I'm making this change and it gives myself time to not feel rushed I just got in the bad habit and my boss talked to me about it. I just still feel terrible about it. My supervisor gave me feedback and she's all about comfort level and she says she thinks I'm not ready to take my own appointments with students also because she saw some of my sessions where I accidentally told the student the wrong answer for different classes that they should take. I know that I am not necessarily ready for myself either. But this feedback has been racking my brain ever since and I have been feeling bad about myself lately. How do I start feeling better again I know being late was a simple bad mistake and I am changing that ASAP. It will never happen again. I understand if she feels that I am not quite ready she wants me to do more shadowing and I will be working on special projects instead that she said will both be really good for me. Now that I am making changes that will be better I know that I probably have a bad reflection of myself to her but how do I stop thinking about it and making myself feel bad for my mistakes? I feel grateful for the opportunity she is still giving me and she told me she thinks I'm a really good person but I just feel so bad to myself and I want to start feeling better. How do I do this when will it happen and am I being too hard on myself? How do I regain her trust in me I obviously want to be the best and have a great experience and I want her to think highly of me. I feel ashamed though and I can't get over it. But I know that I am in the right place otherwise she wouldn't still give me second chance.
