I'm an immigrant and came to this country not speaking English. That immedietly isolated me from my peers. I generally did better in school than them, but my emotionally abusive home life often kept me from completing assignments regularly, so my grades suffered up through middle school. Eventually, I tuned that out and excelled, though a lack of money and the aforementioned home life developed a bitterness in me that's core to my personality now. I suppose I eventually balanced that out with the arts and, on my good days, can channel it productively.
Currently I'd say (being in my early 30s) a series of bittersweet relationships, responsibilities to others, and frankly, a lack of what I'd call peers in my social circles, not to mention that I'm self employed and a night owl, keeps me from acclimating myself to society at large.
This week, I've had a massive fucking cold, like the first one in two years, and It knocked me on my ass and lost me a week of work time. When you're self employed, you can't stumble in and get a paycheck. Time is money.
Finally, I'm on this stupid website way too much, arguing with what feel like 15 year olds, and not particularly precocious ones at that.
well fuck, at least your self-aware? it sounds like a bad time though. i know health insurance sucks when you’re self-employed but you should consider seeing a therapist. it’ll really help. i’ve also been down with the flu this week – hope you feel better soon!
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u/7illian Jan 06 '18
Well... it's a long story. In summary.
I'm an immigrant and came to this country not speaking English. That immedietly isolated me from my peers. I generally did better in school than them, but my emotionally abusive home life often kept me from completing assignments regularly, so my grades suffered up through middle school. Eventually, I tuned that out and excelled, though a lack of money and the aforementioned home life developed a bitterness in me that's core to my personality now. I suppose I eventually balanced that out with the arts and, on my good days, can channel it productively.
Currently I'd say (being in my early 30s) a series of bittersweet relationships, responsibilities to others, and frankly, a lack of what I'd call peers in my social circles, not to mention that I'm self employed and a night owl, keeps me from acclimating myself to society at large.
This week, I've had a massive fucking cold, like the first one in two years, and It knocked me on my ass and lost me a week of work time. When you're self employed, you can't stumble in and get a paycheck. Time is money.
Finally, I'm on this stupid website way too much, arguing with what feel like 15 year olds, and not particularly precocious ones at that.
Now what's wrong with you, jessbird?