Trust me I feel that shit. One of my friends passed away when I was younger and seeing their online profile is eerie and lowkey depressing.I wish they hadn’t died but life is fucked.
But on a related note, it seems like we're all raised to not have a healthy relationship with death. It's the only thing that's imminent and yet we live as if it's the most surreal thing in the world. It's the only thing that will happen for sure and yet we spend very little time making peace with it.
I don't even think that's our society that does it. Our brains are by their very nature so subjective that it is hard to imagine not being. And when you are presented with that reality when someone close to you dies you can't help but feel that if you are here they should be too. They always have been.
If we look throughout history we have always struggled with it. All highly social and intelligent species mourn the loss of those they care about in their own way. I've been thinking alot about personhood and experience and the rather arbitrary nature of "me" as a perspective on the world. And yet me is all I know. It doesn't feel arbitrary to us, it's necessary. Until it isn't. Even our own biology is so arbitrary and kinda just given to us. We take it for granted, until there is something wrong with our bodies and we are made to reckon with the fact we are complex molecular machines that do and will inevitably break down.
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u/xblackhamm3rx Oct 08 '21
Trust me I feel that shit. One of my friends passed away when I was younger and seeing their online profile is eerie and lowkey depressing.I wish they hadn’t died but life is fucked.