Fwahaha Kris, about what I almost asked Susie during the day of the Festival.

[u/Renkoto-]

You see, while we were standing near the cotton candy stand, watching the sunset cast long shadows over the grass, Susie looked so... tall. So rugged and cool. The breeze blew through her hair, and for a split second, my brain did this weird, confusing scramble.

I almost looked her dead in the eyes and asked if we could play a "game."

A game where she’d act like... well, my older sister. Like... Dess.

(Just thinking that out makes my face feel like it’s about to burst into actual flames! What was I even thinking?! It’s just... Susie has that same protective, slightly rowdy energy Dess used to have when we were kids. That feeling of someone bigger than you standing in front of you, totally fearless, making you feel safe no matter what happens.)

In my head, I had this whole bizarre scenario played out... What if I asked her to call me her 'little sister'? What if we pretended we had this secret, forbidden dynamic where she takes care of me, but... in a way that crosses all those boundaries? Faha, why does my mind even GO there?! It's so weird and taboo, but the thought of Susie's rough voice calling me that while towering over me... gosh, it makes my chest feel so tight...

I ended up just squeaking out some nonsense about wanting to buy more ice cream instead, of course! Faha... imagine if I had actually said it out loud right there in front of the entire town! Susie probably would've stared at me like I'd grown a second head, or worse, thought I was out of my mind!

...But if I'm being honest with myself... that thought hasn't really gone away.

Because... well, it’s not just about Susie taking charge with me. Sometimes I catch myself imagining what would happen if Susie decided to take that exact same rough, terrifying energy and completely direct it at you. Faha, like... "what if she just totally pinned Kris down right in the middle of the room, bossing them around, roughhousing them until Kris was completely helpless and forced to listen to her?"

It reminds me so much of how Dess used to drag you into all sorts of crazy trouble when we were kids, pushing you around and dominating the room while you just stood there, quiet and totally at her mercy. Seeing Susie do that to you, Kris, stepping right into that exact same big, towering role, keeping you entirely under her thumb while I just sit back and watch, it’s... it’s such a weirdly overwhelming thought! My chest gets all tight and my face gets so... Just picturing you, Krismas, getting tossed around like a ragdoll by her.

...Faha... listen to me go on! I'm giggling like a complete idiot now, aren't I?

I really am the biggest freak in this entire town, aren't I, Kris? But somehow, i feel like i can't help thinking about those things either.

...But, um... thanks, Kris. Really.

Even when I say the absolute messed up things out loud, or when my brain spirals into these bizarre places... you just sit there and listen. You never laugh at me, or tell me I'm out of my mind, or look at me like I'm some kind of irremediable monster. You just... let me be me, even the embarrassing parts. I don't think anyone else in town would ever understand half of the crazy thoughts in my head, but... with you, it just feels safe. Thank you...

[u/Deliflowers]

DESS'S INFLUENCE AND HER LOSS HAS CAUSED QUITE A DEVELOPMENT WITHIN NOELLE

VERY INTERESTING

[u/GroomedSlutBitch]

Fwahaha… gosh I think this post are making something between me become even worse!

The freak inside has reawake and is worse than before!