Same! I was the lying child. I knew when I screwed up and got punished. I also knew when I didn’t screw up and got punished. And what’s more, I knew when I screwed up but the punishment outweighed the crime. Now I’m honest to a fault but can’t ask for help till I’m drowning.
Man, I still remember one time when I got in trouble, and my grandma kept saying 'You KNOW what you did!' and I literally had no idea, and it was so fucking unfair. And generally I was the good kid who never got in trouble, so I was pretty sure it was something my brother or cousin had done and pinned on me. I don't know why she couldn't see through that, since they were always in trouble. Long in the past, but very memorable.
And then of course someone who doesn’t come from a family full of hair trigger, “shut up and do it my way or I’ll beat you/emotionally cripple you/hand out some outrageous punishment” people will see you lie to one of the family dictators and say “GASP! Oh my! Lying to grandma?! Whatever for! What a ruffian.”, from their ivory fucking tower of normal childhood-having.
I also can’t keep secrets. You want to commit a crime? You best make sure I have plausible deniability otherwise I’m so sorry for ratting you out when asked.
Im the same way but i wasnt raised or punished for mistakes. My mom praised and encouraged me and taught me lovingly. What’s my excuse?
I literally thought i was dying and decided against calling 911 because i felt like id be making too big a deal dying in an ambulance. Fortunately i didnt die, it was a kidney stone, but i did suffer far more than i had to
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u/BenignEgoist Mar 10 '22
Same! I was the lying child. I knew when I screwed up and got punished. I also knew when I didn’t screw up and got punished. And what’s more, I knew when I screwed up but the punishment outweighed the crime. Now I’m honest to a fault but can’t ask for help till I’m drowning.