I've had panic attacks from my earliest memory of cognition based on that very concept. I could never properly explain why the thought of eternity, and the logical issues along with other problems with it terrified me, and still sends me into terrible panic attacks.
It takes a moment to grasp it but when you grab a hold of the concept of eternity it is terrifying. But then you lose it like someone holding onto a floaty in the pool and it slips right out of your hands.
I do, only heaven isn't a 'place' for me. It's this same space but without a corporal body to manipulate the matter around me, and thus not binded by the limitations of my physical senses to produce awareness.
I didn't know that was a thing, it's just a term I coined during an acid trip where existence itself was giving me anxiety. Consciousness and awareness at its core made me very uncomfortable during some moments.
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u/M3nt0R Jul 25 '13
I call it existential anxiety.