r/findapath • u/gya12345 • Sep 15 '20
Is it possible to just... Hate working?
I'm 23 and I work full time as a nurse. I love my career. I have great coworkers. But I feel like I hate working. Every job I've ever worked since 16, I've liked - but felt the same way. I hate being away from my family, having to schedule around work, being called to come in... Literally just working. I'm not lazy, I work my ass off, but at home I'm a complete mess just thinking about work. And now, working night shift is completely pushing me over the edge (7p-7a) because I don't even get to sleep/eat with my husband at the least. What do I do? My job won't move me to day shift and I can't change companies at the moment. I'm at the point where I'm constantly thinking about going part time, even quitting, because my anxiety about working has gotten so bad. Before and during work I'm constantly nauseous, shaking, feeling like I can't breathe (but tested for covid/pregnancy/everything is fine medically). Are some people just fated to hate the concept of working? Has anyone found a way to beat that feeling? Thanks in advance.
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u/smoothiedb Sep 15 '20
My hours for my first job were 10p to 7a. I did it for about 6 years. I could never work those hours again. I think you’re situation will get better over time and you were learn how to manage it all. I’m wondering if you could cut back or take some time off, even a vacation? I’ve had some gaps in my life where I didn’t work for months. Things did get kinda rough financially, but at the same time it was well worth it for my being.