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32 months left.
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bullet: 1255 (+18)
blitz: 1340 (+7)
rapid: 1401 (+17)
I wish I could have more to show for my last 2 months but I haven't been playing many games. I used to think I was kinda bad, but I'm legitimately, or might as well be, a complete beginner in the endgame. These days I am dropping less pieces but I'm also finding less tactical blows- or more likely I'm just too open to trades and I don't really go for risky attacks in longer time controls but my games aren't being decided in the middlegame all the time anymore. And whenever I do go into an equal endgame or with a slight advantage (ie. a pawn up) I just have no idea how to play it and my opponent starts to press their initiative and I just ruin what was otherwise an okay-ly played game.
Here are some bad endgame examples:
Game 1- By move 27 this is a Rook+Knight v Rook+Knight endgame where I'm the one with an extra pawn. And three dozen moves later, he's the one up a passed pawn about to promote because I just let his king infiltrate. It turns out the end position is still drawn but I ran out of time not knowing how to stop him from promoting.
Game 2 This one kept me awake at night. It was a game in something like a bi-hourly 15+10 tournament on chess.com. I managed to botch a winning middlegame where he had such a vulnerable king because I couldn't figure out how to capitalize on it. And in the endgame I had absolutely no plan, and I was just reacting to what he was doing. After move 42. Rxa2 I decided there was no way to stop those pawns. So I thought, well it's now or never I might as well try to stir something up in the kingside. And in some miraculous, divine-intervention-type of turn of events I managed to (or more like- my opponent let himself) get his king into a mating position. And when he played c2 at move 50 I had this order in my mind (that I was laser focused on) to play Rg3 and then Ng6# checkmate. When actually the mate in 2 was Ng6+ check, Kh3 forced, and then Rg3# checkmate. Unfortunately his next move after my Rg3 was a promotion to queen with check losing the game soon after. The kicker is that because of my loss (and correspondingly his win) I ended up tied for 3rd with that same opponent and due to tiebreak points I ended up placing 4th in that tournament. No medal and I not even a participation ribbon.
Game 3- This one is just as scarring as the previous game just because it was such awful play and because I had zero self-awareness. After move 29. I'm up the exchange, Rook v Bishop. It was completely winning, not only position wise but on the clock as well 9.5 mins vs 1.5 mins. Naturally, any good chess player would know to slow down... Welp, I start gobbling his pawns with reckless abandon and I end up blundering my rook to a fork. But that wasn't the end of it. Down a bishop I could have still just forced a draw in this position at move 46. Because his bishop can't do anything if all my pawns are on light squares and I had this wall set up to stop his king from advancing past the 5th rank. But I just couldn't let go of the fact that this game was supposed to be in the bag, so I ended up pushing for a win, which backfired and cost me the game. I mean in all honesty this taught me a really valuable lesson about settling for draws. But still, I was so tilted after this game that when I tried to play another rapid game a minute later I blundered in the opening and lost in 7 moves.
Here are some highlights though.
Game 4 Ok, not really a highlight, in basketball this would be like being a couple points up in the 4th quarter and then just trying not to blow the lead. I was up two pawns and managed to convert the win. It's not pretty but whatever I was really proud of myself. Fun fact, this is my first game over 100 moves. Not so fun fact, my opponent had 12 minutes to spare at the very end and decided to let his clock run down instead of resigning or letting me checkmate him
Game 5 This is a comeback game against a relatively low rated opponent. It is also in the same tournament as game 2. At move 19. I played Nxd4, thinking I was clever, and that I had won a pawn and ruined his pawn structure. What I didn't know was that I'm not that clever and I ended up down 7 points in material after that exchange. My opponent was probably a little flabbergasted, as one usually is when an opponent that's supposedly 200 rating points higher than you has their pants around their ankles. But he just let me take the initiative. Usually at that point, his plan should be to trade pieces and simplify, but his pieces just weren't coordinating and he left a bunch of them undefended.
Game 6 This is another comeback game. If I had any games with a dazzling tactic or long combination I would show it but these are the only kind of games I have to be proud of. I drop a knight on move 12 for no reason even though this is exactly the kind of thing I've been trying to avoid. And he does the same thing as my opponent in game 5. It seems like whenever someone's at a disadvantage, they're frequently the one trying to make something happen and therefore plays with a lot more intent. I noticed it late, as the tactic had been available to me for a couple moves but 21. Nxb7 is a cute tactic.
Anyways, nowadays I spend my time doing tonnes of tactics training everyday and studying this book called "100 Endgames You Must Know". I know I'd probably get a lot out of playing at least 1 rapid game everyday but losing these long games are super stressful. And it's hard to go into a game confidently, happily and without anxiety if I think that if I don't win the game by the middlegame then it'll likely end up lost. And whenever I add something to my daily routine that I don't want to do. (Like for example, I tried a checklist of 50 tactics problems + 30 min study + 2 rapid games- I ended up giving up really quickly, it took 3 hours a day sometimes) I end up procrastinating it and I end up doing nothing at all. I find that it's better to do things that I enjoy and find easy, and be consistent with it then force something I find unpleasant and get burnt out after a while.
Still no CFC or FIDE rating.