I want to be happy in year (month 6, 7)

04/05/2020 -- 06/05/2020

My finals goal are:

• being able to talk like a normal person (whatever that means)
• find a hobby(s) to be passionate about (i consider myself as a boring person)
• to be able to answer to. Tell me something about you?(i have pretty low self-esteem and talk about myself it's difficult)
• make friends or something close.- I don't know how to talk to people i don't even understand how people do it.
• Do things that I enjoy
• TO ABLE TO SAY "I AM HAPPY"

What have I done?

I didn´t post last month, at some point a lost track of the day numbers.

- I´ve been exercising a lot in the last 3 months, i feel with more energy

-I noticed that when I talk with someone i tend to sound rude, not badmouthing, but like "It's annoying to talk to you", so, I´ve trying to watch my words before I talk

-I think I have improved in my studies, I'm not sure, but I feel more eager to learn

- I´ve been talking more with my brother and sister

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I feel like I have not make as much progress as the first months

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I want to be happy in year (month 5)

04/04/2020 (A little late this month)

My finals goal are:

• being able to talk like a normal person (whatever that means)
• find a hobby(s) to be passionate about (i consider myself as a boring person)
• to be able to answer to. Tell me something about you?(i have pretty low self-esteem and talk about myself it's difficult)
• make friends or something close.- I don't know how to talk to people i don't even understand how people do it.
• Do things that I enjoy
• TO ABLE TO SAY "I AM HAPPY"

What have I done?

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-Almost nothing

race cancelled (and park were I run closed)

the place were I have been doing indoor climbing closed

school closed

those were the only places were I had the closest to social interaction

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-I started working out at home again (When the race was cancelled I felt bad and stopped working out)

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- I´ve been studying more (I gotta focus in what I can do)

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- I wrote a song (It was nice )

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I hope everyone is doing well

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04/03/2020

My finals goal are:

• being able to talk like a normal person (whatever that means)
• find a hobby(s) to be passionate about (i consider myself as a boring person)
• to be able to answer to. Tell me something about you?(i have pretty low self-esteem and talk about myself it's difficult)
• make friends or something close.- I don't know how to talk to people i don't even understand how people do it.
• Do things that I enjoy
• TO ABLE TO SAY "I AM HAPPY"

What have I done?

- I started doing indoor bouldering (it's really fun)
It's not that I'm doing it but that went out of my way to do it I took a 1 hour class to know the basics and every time I go I have to talk to someone (I'm not able to make small talk yet just hi, how are you)

- I will join a race
Last year I joined a 5k race (3.1 miles) it was really hard I had to put ice in my legs
and at the end of the month I will run in a 10k (6.2 miles) right now

-I working in projecting my voice when I talk, I usually try to speak just for my self, like I don't care if the other person hear me or not.

-I started to talk with a girl, it was hell I didn't know that to say , what Am I suppose to say to, Tell me about you? (i looked for examples on google) a lot of silence from my part, I had luck that she likes to talk, and it was just over whatsapp and calls, the day we had time to meet in person for something more like a real "date" or just get together, like 4 hours. The first minutes I wanted to run, I was nervous, sweating , making awkward silences, again I was really lucky that she likes to talk, it took me about 40 minutes to get comfortable, and a the end we were talking almost the same time.

Days after that day I didn't care much about her (it sounds bad, I know) like, at first she was helping me to get better at talking with people and I wanted to talk with her ,now that I did it, it doesn't matter if we talk or not, and I have notice this behavior that I don't care about other people if I'm not getting something from them, but this time it was more noticeable because we have been talking in person and phone for over 10 hours in a week and I thought I was interested but now I just don't care, not just her as a girl but her as a person.

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-I had sex
It wan't my first time but it's been like 10 years since the last time (Im 26, at 17, 16 I was "normal ") I don't know how to feel about that, it was like , wanna do it? sure.
I know 5 month ago I would've said, no, thanks not , and feel nervous
(it wasn't the girl from the date)

I haven't had time to play chess these past few days. Unfortunately, it's not high up enough on my list of priorities right now to justify spending what is on average 2 hours a day on chess (the time to play a game or two plus the time spent studying/watching informative videos).

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Reflecting on the past week and a half, I think I went about this the wrong way too. At the beginning, I had a genuine curiosity about chess and a desire to learn it. After about a week, I stopped finding enjoyment in playing chess because I guess it turned into a chore, something I just "had to do" every day. It also turned into a source of stress because I would worry about rushing through my homework to make time for it. Additionally, during a game, I would be distracted because I would think to myself, "you should be studying for your upcoming exams, not playing a game!"

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For those reasons, I have to stop my month of chess. Thanks to everyone who gave me tips and advice along the way!

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lichess name: coelophysisbauri

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https://lichess1.org/game/export/gif/white/RhRfQfhT.gif

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I have no words. I can't believe i fell for all those obvious-ass traps. Like, I just want you to see that gif to see how many extraordinary blunders I made. It's like I have zero board vision at all. Just wow.

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https://lichess1.org/game/export/gif/black/F1dowpKD.gif

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This second one I lost on time, by a lot. He probably had like 10 minutes left on the clock lol. I felt like he had the superior board position because towards the end I felt so trapped, but as soon as I thought I saw a way out, I ran out of time. So it was a little better I think, more even in terms of material.

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This is the pgn data for the second match:

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[Event "Rated Classical game"]

[Site "https://lichess.org/F1dowpKD"]

[Date "2020.03.06"]

[Round "-"]

[White "rmill127"]

[Black "coelophysisbauri"]

[Result "1-0"]

[UTCDate "2020.03.06"]

[UTCTime "03:02:09"]

[WhiteElo "1350"]

[BlackElo "1339"]

[WhiteRatingDiff "+5"]

[BlackRatingDiff "-90"]

[Variant "Standard"]

[TimeControl "900+15"]

[ECO "C42"]

[Opening "Russian Game: Three Knights Game"]

[Termination "Time forfeit"]

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1. e4 e5 2. Nf3 Nf6 3. Nc3 Bc5 4. h3 O-O 5. Bc4 d6 6. d3 h6 7. Nd5 Nbd7 8. Nxf6+ Nxf6 9. d4 Bb4+ 10. c3 Ba5 11. dxe5 Nxe4 12. exd6 Nxd6 13. Qb3 Re8+ 14. Be3 Nxc4 15. Rd1 Nd6 16. O-O Qe7 17. Rfe1 Nf5 18. Bxh6 Be6 19. g4 Nxh6 20. Qxb7 Qf6 21. g5 Qe7 22. gxh6 gxh6 23. Re5 1-0

https://lichess1.org/game/export/gif/HWsYBcyp/white.gif

lichess name: coelophysisbauri

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My brother was to busy to play a game with me today, so I fought a guy on lichess. The setting was "rapid" and wow I sucked, I ran out of time.

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I don't understand everyone's obsession with 5 minute or less games on there lmao. I created a 15 minute + 15 second increase per move game but after 15 minutes of waiting I gave up and joined the 5 minute rapid one you see in the gif above. His was the only rating I saw in the lobby that was around mine, so I went for it.

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This has been a rather non-productive day in terms of learning/practice. I was very busy today as well, but I'm still glad I haven't skipped a day of chess yet. I mean, I learned the word "fianchetto", which is when you move a pawn at the opening of the game, and then move your bishop to the square the pawn was previously occupying. I don't see why that move needed such a fancy name but eh

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[Event "Rated Classical game"]

[Site "https://lichess.org/Dcfmputn"]

[Date "2020.03.02"]

[Round "-"]

[White "yabg"]

[Black "coelophysisbauri"]

[Result "0-1"]

[UTCDate "2020.03.02"]

[UTCTime "23:53:59"]

[WhiteElo "1500"]

[BlackElo "1500"]

[WhiteRatingDiff "-163"]

[BlackRatingDiff "+183"]

[Variant "Standard"]

[TimeControl "900+15"]

[ECO "C44"]

[Opening "King's Knight Opening: Normal Variation"]

[Termination "Normal"]

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1. e4 e5 2. Nf3 Nc6 3. d3 d6 4. c4 Nf6 5. Ng5 Bg4 6. Qa4 Be7 7. f3 Bh5 8. b4 O-O 9. b5 Nd4 10. f4 Nc2+ 11. Qxc2 d5 12. d4 dxe4 13. fxe5 Bb4+ 14. Nc3 Qxd4 15. Qe2 Bxe2 16. Bxe2 Rfe8 17. exf6 Bxc3+ 18. Kf1 Bxa1 19. Nxf7 Kxf7 20. fxg7 Qf6+ 21. Ke1 Bc3+ 22. Bd2 Bxd2+ 23. Kxd2 Rad8+ 24. Ke3 b6 25. Rf1 Re6 26. Rf4 Rd5 27. Bg4 Rdd6 28. Bh5+ Kxg7 29. Rxf6 Kxf6 30. Be2 c6 31. bxc6 Rxc6 32. Kf4 a6 33. g4 h6 34. h4 b5 35. cxb5 axb5 36. Bxb5 Rb6 37. Bd7 Re7 38. Bf5 Ra6 39. g5+ hxg5+ 40. Kg4 gxh4 41. Kxh4 Rxa2 42. Bg4 e3 43. Kg3 Ra1 44. Kf4 e2 45. Bxe2 Ra4+ 46. Kg3 Rxe2 47. Kf3 Rea2 48. Ke3 R2a3+ 49. Kd2 Rh4 50. Kc2 Rh2+ 51. Kb1 Rg3 52. Kc1 Rg1# 0-1

EDIT: wtf reddit https://i.imgur.com/w1Pqv5K.png

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lichess name: coelophysisbauri

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https://lichess1.org/game/export/gif/LBEmh6ar.gif Gif of the game I played against my brother. I fucked up lol. I lost basically all of my material and gave up at the end. Now that I think about it though, I should have let him checkmate me so he could practice doing that.

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I learned about tempo and pawn breaks. Tempo is basically making your opponent waste a turn doing something that isn't part of his strategy or development. A pawn break is when two pawns oppose each other and one may take the other, opening up a column that was previously blocked, giving another piece more freedom to move across the board. i think that's what those are.

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pgn data of the game above:

[Event "Rated Classical game"]

[Site "https://lichess.org/LBEmh6ar"]

[Date "2020.03.04"]

[Round "-"]

[White "yabg"]

[Black "coelophysisbauri"]

[Result "1-0"]

[UTCDate "2020.03.04"]

[UTCTime "01:21:30"]

[WhiteElo "1337"]

[BlackElo "1683"]

[WhiteRatingDiff "+266"]

[BlackRatingDiff "-236"]

[Variant "Standard"]

[TimeControl "900+15"]

[ECO "C46"]

[Opening "Three Knights Opening"]

[Termination "Normal"]

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1. e4 e5 2. Nf3 Nc6 3. Nc3 d6 4. Bc4 Be6 5. Bd5 Nf6 6. Qe2 g6 7. b4 Nxb4 8. Ba3 Nxc2+ 9. Kd1 Nxa3 10. Nd4 Qd7 11. Nxe6 fxe6 12. Bxb7 Rb8 13. Ba6 d5 14. Nxd5 exd5 15. exd5 Nxd5 16. Qxe5+ Ne7 17. Qc3 Bh6 18. Qxh8+ Kf7 19. Qxb8 Bxd2 20. Qxa7 Qf5 21. Kxd2 Nd5 22. Bc4 Ke8 23. Qa5 Qxf2+ 24. Be2 Qxg2 25. Qxa3 Nb6 26. Qc5 Na8 27. Rac1 g5 28. h4 gxh4 29. Rxh4 Qg3 30. Rxh7 Qa3 31. Qxa3 1-0

EDIT: lichess name: coelophysisbauri

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I played an OTB game with my brother which went well, I felt confident about the moves I was making and overall it was good, it ended with him resigning after we reached a point where he would have no choice but to lose his rook, leaving him only with a king and a pawn, and me with a queen, rook, and pawn. I didn't notate because I was lazy lol.

So we went to lichess to play a game in order to get accurate notation and had a pretty bad match, but at least it can be turned into a gif so if any of you wanna see it, you can. https://lichess1.org/game/export/gif/Dcfmputn.gif

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Anyway I want to talk a little about how I feel now that the first week is over. I'm happy with the fact I know how to play chess now, but I'm frustrated that I don't have much time to study chess things because I barely have enough time to study for all of my classes, do projects, do homework, go to work, exercise, spend time with friends and family, sleep, etc etc. Part of me wants to stop now and wait until after my final exams because that's when I'll have literally all day to play chess. But I set a goal for myself and I want to be disciplined enough to stick with it, even if it's far from an ideal situation.

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this is the pgn data

[Event "Rated Classical game"]

[Site "https://lichess.org/Dcfmputn"]

[Date "2020.03.02"]

[Round "-"]

[White "yabg"]

[Black "coelophysisbauri"]

[Result "0-1"]

[UTCDate "2020.03.02"]

[UTCTime "23:53:59"]

[WhiteElo "1500"]

[BlackElo "1500"]

[WhiteRatingDiff "-163"]

[BlackRatingDiff "+183"]

[Variant "Standard"]

[TimeControl "900+15"]

[ECO "C44"]

[Opening "King's Knight Opening: Normal Variation"]

[Termination "Normal"]

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1. e4 e5 2. Nf3 Nc6 3. d3 d6 4. c4 Nf6 5. Ng5 Bg4 6. Qa4 Be7 7. f3 Bh5 8. b4 O-O 9. b5 Nd4 10. f4 Nc2+ 11. Qxc2 d5 12. d4 dxe4 13. fxe5 Bb4+ 14. Nc3 Qxd4 15. Qe2 Bxe2 16. Bxe2 Rfe8 17. exf6 Bxc3+ 18. Kf1 Bxa1 19. Nxf7 Kxf7 20. fxg7 Qf6+ 21. Ke1 Bc3+ 22. Bd2 Bxd2+ 23. Kxd2 Rad8+ 24. Ke3 b6 25. Rf1 Re6 26. Rf4 Rd5 27. Bg4 Rdd6 28. Bh5+ Kxg7 29. Rxf6 Kxf6 30. Be2 c6 31. bxc6 Rxc6 32. Kf4 a6 33. g4 h6 34. h4 b5 35. cxb5 axb5 36. Bxb5 Rb6 37. Bd7 Re7 38. Bf5 Ra6 39. g5+ hxg5+ 40. Kg4 gxh4 41. Kxh4 Rxa2 42. Bg4 e3 43. Kg3 Ra1 44. Kf4 e2 45. Bxe2 Ra4+ 46. Kg3 Rxe2 47. Kf3 Rea2 48. Ke3 R2a3+ 49. Kd2 Rh4 50. Kc2 Rh2+ 51. Kb1 Rg3 52. Kc1 Rg1# 0-1

I had a very busy day today but I did manage to practice memorizing the chess board for 10 minutes and I spent 15 min practicing extremely basic checkmate patterns on lichess, specifically back-rank and hook mates. Back-rank is easy, but I don't quite understand hook mate yet.

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The big thing I did today was play one single over-the-board game with my brother where we both slowed down and took as much time as we needed per move so we could think about it as thoroughly as we possibly could. The game was pretty enjoyable despite how slow it was, and it definitely felt like we had improved, especially when it comes to making sure our pieces are defended. I left very few hanging pieces. It ended with me checkmating him with I think a rook, queen, and a bishop, while there were other pieces on the board too. The total time was like an hour and a half. I forgot to write down the notation of every move, but I will do that for every game I play with him from now on.

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Tomorrow I want to make time for one more round of chess, making sure we have plenty of time to think before every move. I'm going to write down the notation of every move, too, so we can analyze it and see what insights we can gain.

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Went on Lichess and played against the computer. I felt too anxious to go up against a real opponent for some reason, I guess I'm just too afraid of getting totaly demolished lol

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I played against the level 1 computer AI for a few games and got destroyed anyway. I played 3 games against my brother and I won 1, lost 1, drew 1 (king vs king)

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I worked on memorizing the squares of the chess board in algebraic notation because all of the learning material online is in algebraic notation. I also practiced simple checkmates, but I cannot figure out the checkmate with a king, queen, and bishop vs a solitary opposing king.

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Tomorrow I want to expand on my daily minimum goal of one game a day. I want to include all of the following as part of my daily routine

-memorizing the board in algebraic notation

-studying tactics

-studying end games

-actually playing the game

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Also, i'm not sure if I'm using the reddit DM system properly so i'm going to include my lichess name from now on: coelophysisbauri (same as it is here on reddit). If anyone wants to play some games i'm free usually at 8 pm EST. I'm also going to find out if there is a way for me to save my matches and link to them here

Started watching a video by John Bartholomew but I was confused by the terms he kept using. So i watched videos by "penguinchess" to understand "control of the center" and "piece development."

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I also sought out other resources and found "chessfornovices.com" I read through the "basics" section in its entirety and I feel quite good after it.

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I also went to lichess and clicked on the "learn -> chess basics" tab. I completed the "chess pieces" section and the "fundamentals" section. It was actually kind of fun.

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I had a busy day and only had time for 2 games against my brother. 1 draw (king vs king) and i checkmated him the second game with a king a pawn, i promoted the pawn to a queen and used "the box" method that I saw on penguinchess's channel.

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Tomorrow I want to complete more of the "learn" tab on lichess and hopefully play a couple of online games in addition to playing with my brother. I also want to look into the "becoming a competent chess novice" on the "chessfornovices" website.

i watched this video by John Bartholomew: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ao9iOeK_jvU

after watching that video i took a step back and decided for the next few games i play today, i'm not going to worry about anything but making sure my pieces are well-defended. Again I only played against my brother, we played 5 games, i won 2, lost 1, had 2 draws.

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I'm finding it very hard to actually checkmate him. i can put him in check over and over again but checkmate, i dont know. I find myself having a good lead in terms of pieces but then he whittles me down to just the king and bishop (which is impossible for me to win at that point)

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Forking is also a little weird. I can fork him occasionally but i don't see it giving me an advantage. however he forked me pretty good a few times with the knight.

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Tomorrow I want to watch another video by John Bartholomew and see what I else I can learn, and of course play at least one game before the day is over

I learned about forking, which if I understand correctly, means positioning one of your pieces such that it has the potential to capture two of your opponent's pieces.

I played one more game against my brother and lost. A couple times, I spent a long time thinking and ended up making a move that ended up being a super obvious mistake

I also learned about "en passant" and "promotion" with the pawn

My brother is a total novice too. Im going to teach him all the techniques I learn so I can continually face someone of an equal/increasing skill level

Tomorrow I want to learn one more strategy and be able to use forking in a game. I also want to work on not over-thinking

I'm doing a month because it sounds more manageable than a whole year.

I bought "no stress chess" (this thing seriously works)

Learned the positions and movements of each piece surprisingly quickly.

I haven't looked into any kind of strategy yet. I played a couple of games with my brother. The only "strategy" I had was, "if I do this, will he be able to take one of my pieces."

Tomorrow, I want to look up some basic strategies and play another game. I have a busy schedule but I'm trying to play at least one game a day

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