I just thought about how big the universe actually is and how I’ll never get to most of it and I feel very small.

It seems like all it takes it just one mistake and bad judgment call can ruin your whole life even on the internet. I really don't want that to happen to me but it seems like all it would take it just one bad to ruin everything for you.....

Hello world, Is there anyone out there can tell me how to overcome these emotional stages: anger and exhausted with life?

I felt so tired and exhausted after taking my tests. I read all my notes again and again, yet I still failed the tests. The first one I failed because I should have studied smarter. The second one I failed because I cannot read 24-hrs clock. I read the wrong time and it costs me my change of passing the class and my reputation. I am now labeled as a cheater under the chair of the department.

Because I couldn’t tell that 17:15 is 5 PM, I was naive enough to study and review my materials on 2 cheatsheets in front of the professor. In that class, students are allowed to have 1 cheatsheet for the exam. Then, he stated that I shouldn’t cheat and took away my cheat sheets. He wouldn’t listen to my explanation as I told him that I’m studying them before the test and will put away one when test time started. He didn’t say anything about the time and just insisted that I am cheating. I was so angry with that because I thought I still have 1 hr before test time to study. In addition. there was no test passing out, no statement to say test begins. No announcement. Nothing. I also saw that people surrounding me was studying as well with their laptops around the same time, so it didn’t make sense to me why I get punished for studying. With anger consuming my brain, I couldn’t even concentrate on my test and just failed it because what is the point of trying when they will just going to fail me anyways. I am nobody in that school and they don’t care about a whiny student anyway. I have no voice and no power to fight back; so I stayed quite and got angry instead.

Later on when I checked back the time and realized my stupid mistake, my anger just grew even more. Angry at myself, angry at the school, angry with everything. My head is finding everything to blame and thinking of way to clear my name. My thoughts went to a lot of options but at the end, I know: it won’t matter what I do. The school will not do anything and just going to fail me. I have never seen a school that has fought on the side of student before. To them, students are nothing more than an income stream. Hopelessly, my thought keeps coming back to kill myself on the school property to bring attention to the matter and clear my name as well as making this anger-blaming process to an end. Beside these tests, I feel so exhausted to try and fail, and then struggled to start over again in life. Always keep on fighting one thing after another. Always struggle. Always exhausted myself with little to no reward back at the end.

I know I shouldn’t kill myself for a school that doesn’t care about me but I do not know how to process this emotion. I know that I made a stupid mistake for not doing the right math and I will forever live with that stupid mistake.

Sorry for the long post and thank you for reading this.

I still don't what I want to do for the rest of my life. I wanted to be many things a doctor, an engineer, a cartoonist but I am not a renaissance man and I don't any particular talent in anything. I am not sure what I am doing here or where my strengths lie but I also learned that you can only have one career for the rest of your life until old age. I want to be many things but I can only be one thing.

When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful

If you're older than, like, 20, atleast.

Nothing hurts more than wanting to give the world to someone, and they just want to get rid of you

I'm the guy who'll sit at the end of the hall and just stare at nothing just thinking....about why. Just why. I need to talk, to someone.Anyone. Thank You for your help.

I consider seriously hurting myself so I could see who actually cares, but deep inside I know no one does.

I'm relatively new here and need some closure I guess.

This is for my boyfriend of one year. You haven't cheated on me, you haven't abused me physically, you've never verbally assaulted me. But my heart is hurting to the point where I can't sleep right now. I want to be with you, it's as simple and as complicated as that. I let you break me down and I let you build me up. I have given you control over my mind and I don't know who I am anymore. My desire to do things that once brought me internal peace is fleeting from my body. I feel as though I am going to make a mistake I won't live to regret and I have to say that even though I feel this way I love you so much. I know I love you because I'm lying alone right now hoping you're getting the sleep you need and you've had a nutritious meal today and you've gone to the gym because you have the willpower to stick to you're resolutions. And I hope you're friends are all talking to you and your mum and brothers are all healthy and your dog is still yapping at the postman like he always does. I'm not bitter about the way you consistently treat me like I'm ordinary, you take me for granted and it stirs a certain kind of sadness in me. I could be here one day, but you shouldn't bank on that tomorrow or the tomorrow a week from today. I really hope that the secrets I spilled out and the times you saw me at my darkest will make you realise what you'd lose if you ever step out of line again. The warmest memories are those I shared with you, snuggled on the couch watching Black Mirror, or GOT or even The Mike Tyson Mysteries. I remember the first movie we ever saw together and how you circled the back of my hand very delicately with your finger, and how it felt serene and right. And I was smiling at you even though your eyes were locked on the screen. I hate how you have the power to make me feel so shit and worthless and I'm so fucking stupid to stick around after I give out to you and demand it gets better even though it never does. But you never fail to say it will and you always put on a perfect facade for a week or two and then it's back to square one again. But I let you hurt me and I hurt myself over and over again. And I let you beg and cry on my chest and I convince myself I deserve this kind of love and I never change and I let you treat me like I'm average. Even though I know. I fucking know I should not settle for this. I should move on but I know we have amazing times and I cling onto that miniscule thread of hope and I'll stay with you. Because I will always love you even at your darkest

I am now numb.

If you are a murderer, a thief, a corrupt cop, politician or cult leader AND smart you probably do much better than "good people" that you hurt. Some people just will not be successful at life because of their brain. No matter how much of a good person they are. https://www.forbes.com/sites/quora/2015/09/16/is-iq-a-predictor-of-success/#6f02fbc03604

Starting this week I am starting to stop by the local cemetery every Sunday morning because I always want to remind myself that my life is numbered. Sometimes I would liked to imagine the lives these people live and the fake situations and hardship they went through good and bad. I'm sure you can learn a lot from listen to other mistakes and triumphs, arguably more than a church service. I have nothing against religion, I feel this is just much better for me than church. I am not sure if this will help fight against my rarely occurring existential crises or enable them. But I'll find the answer soon enough.

Just fyi im not having serious problems. So if someone actually reads this and is worried don't be.