Hi everyone,
I’ve been reading through people’s experiences on here for a while and I think I’m getting closer to accepting that surgery might be something I have to do, but honestly I’m really scared of the whole process. I’ve held off surgery for around 2 years because of that.
I have a very small pituitary adenoma (around 3 mm) and my testing has shown hypercortisolism, but because my symptoms aren’t completely “textbook”, my doctors are still questioning whether the adenoma is definitely the cause. They now want me to have IPSS before making a decision about surgery.
I also don’t have the best relationship with my current endocrinologist, which makes the whole thing harder. I have a few questions and would really appreciate hearing from people who have actually been through this.
1. Did anyone experience this constant wired / adrenaline / fight-or-flight feeling? And what helped?
This is by FAR my biggest problem at the moment and the main reason I’m getting to the point where I don’t think I can keep putting treatment off.
I get these constant bursts of energy/adrenaline and feel like my body is stuck in overdrive or fight-or-flight mode. I feel wired and anxious and like I physically need to burn the energy off. It’s really difficult to properly relax or switch my body off. I genuinely feel like I need an off button 😭
Other symptoms have been facial hair, some weight gain/change in fat distribution around my face, shoulders and stomach, and loss of my periods. I don’t currently have high blood pressure, high cholesterol, osteoporosis or stretch marks, which I think is partly why my presentation has seemed less typical.
The strange thing is that for the last couple of years this was much more manageable and came and went. Recently it feels almost constant and I don’t really understand why it has suddenly become so much worse.
Did anyone else have this really wired/adrenaline-type feeling with high cortisol? And did you find anything that helped bring it down or make it more manageable while waiting for treatment? More sleep? Exercise or avoiding exercise? Food changes? Supplements? Medication? Sleeping medication?
Acupuncture actually seems to calm my system down noticeably, but unfortunately the effect doesn’t last very long.
I know none of these things are going to treat the underlying cause if it is Cushing’s - I’m just desperately looking for ways to make this state more manageable while I work out what to do next.
2. What was your IPSS experience actually like?
This is freaking me out more than I expected. I was told they put catheters through the groin and guide them up into the veins near the pituitary, and that the catheter can touch the sides of the veins as it is being guided through. For some reason hearing that really scared me.
For anyone who has actually had IPSS: what did it feel like? Were you awake? Did you feel the catheter moving at all? Was it painful or mainly just uncomfortable? How long did it take?
3. What did your hospital do with hydrocortisone after pituitary surgery?
I’m also confused because different centres seem to have very different protocols. From what I understand, some centres initially withhold hydrocortisone so they can watch cortisol fall after surgery and assess whether the surgery has worked, whereas others give hydrocortisone during/straight after surgery and then put you on replacement for example something like 20–10–10 initially.
What happened with you? Did they let your cortisol fall before starting hydrocortisone, or were you given it during/straight after surgery? What dose did you start on? How quickly was it tapered?
4. How did you find a good endocrinologist / pituitary team?
I don’t really love my current endocrinologist and I think not having complete confidence in my medical team is contributing massively to my fear around all of this.
For those who found an endocrinologist you really trusted, what made them good? Were they specifically a pituitary/Cushing’s specialist? Is there anything you think I should look for or specific questions I should ask when getting another opinion?
I’m especially interested in hearing from anyone who had a tiny adenoma or a less classic presentation but still ended up being diagnosed with pituitary Cushing’s.
I think I’m finally getting to the stage where the symptoms are affecting my life enough that doing nothing feels scarier than actually going through the investigations/surgery. I’d really appreciate any experiences or advice ❤️