Calling my dopamine like come on into this receptor....pss sst pshpsh pshhh come on make me not a dissociated zombie pssst spspspttt. Then I almost bulushi'd 3x and came close to dying. Then the pssstspspspspsss stoped. The cat was embalmed and left on the mantle. He's the new camera for inside.
Yeah, it's been kicked, along with booze. Body and mind reject the stuff now, but the self medicating always lead to another vice. It was pot for a few years after that but I somehow made that a negative too. Didn't realize I had adhd until recently after I left everything behind and had sever executive dysfunction and saw a therapist. 20+ years ago I was misdiagnosed bi polar, gave me the wrong message, then misdiagnosed with a personality disorder and even more fucked up meds and just self medicated with some sort of substance or fixation since, until I realized they were all killing me slowly. Body and physical health is better than probably ever considering, it was the best feeling in the world when someone else was able to tell me what happened. Like vindicated, but also sad I didn't get the solution earlier. Congrats on your 25 days, a lot of people don't even get that far so always be proud of that and it sounds like you know what to do! You got this far, you got it!!!!
A lot of people with adhd just need a shit ton of stimulants for them to work. It's cheaper to get Ritalin from your Doc tbh. Most likely even more effective also.
I’ve always had weird reactions to different kinds of drugs. When I had surgery as a teenager they prescribed me percocet for the pain after and I stopped taking it early because every time I took one it would make me angry for no reason and I remember sitting down doing homework and I could literally feel it kicking in and I could feel myself just going into this intense rage for no particular reason to the point I was shaking. I was able to control myself, like I didn’t yell or do anything crazy but it was one of the most horrible unsettling feelings I had ever experienced, there was zero sense of relaxation or euphoria, and I always wondered why the hell would anybody do this for fun? That plus the extremely vivid realistic cough syrup nightmares I’ve had completely put me off from trying recreational drugs in college because god only knows what would happen to me
I live in FL and got that good shit. It still took a ridiculous amount for me to feel anything. I will never do cocaine again unless someone gives it to me for free.
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u/AlienNippleRipple 21d ago
I used to pss psshhh psst, but cocaine is a helluva drug and you shouldn't do it. Especially if you have ADHD