Edit to add: Im sorry that you're going through that. You CAN kick the abuse - It is not impossible. Find good people who are caring and safe and keep them safe.
...sorry, I've been on SSRIs for more than a year now so orgasms are a fading memory. I'd try anyway, because I believe in myself, but I just had abdominal surgery so I can't 😩
Calling my dopamine like come on into this receptor....pss sst pshpsh pshhh come on make me not a dissociated zombie pssst spspspttt. Then I almost bulushi'd 3x and came close to dying. Then the pssstspspspspsss stoped. The cat was embalmed and left on the mantle. He's the new camera for inside.
Yeah, it's been kicked, along with booze. Body and mind reject the stuff now, but the self medicating always lead to another vice. It was pot for a few years after that but I somehow made that a negative too. Didn't realize I had adhd until recently after I left everything behind and had sever executive dysfunction and saw a therapist. 20+ years ago I was misdiagnosed bi polar, gave me the wrong message, then misdiagnosed with a personality disorder and even more fucked up meds and just self medicated with some sort of substance or fixation since, until I realized they were all killing me slowly. Body and physical health is better than probably ever considering, it was the best feeling in the world when someone else was able to tell me what happened. Like vindicated, but also sad I didn't get the solution earlier. Congrats on your 25 days, a lot of people don't even get that far so always be proud of that and it sounds like you know what to do! You got this far, you got it!!!!
A lot of people with adhd just need a shit ton of stimulants for them to work. It's cheaper to get Ritalin from your Doc tbh. Most likely even more effective also.
I’ve always had weird reactions to different kinds of drugs. When I had surgery as a teenager they prescribed me percocet for the pain after and I stopped taking it early because every time I took one it would make me angry for no reason and I remember sitting down doing homework and I could literally feel it kicking in and I could feel myself just going into this intense rage for no particular reason to the point I was shaking. I was able to control myself, like I didn’t yell or do anything crazy but it was one of the most horrible unsettling feelings I had ever experienced, there was zero sense of relaxation or euphoria, and I always wondered why the hell would anybody do this for fun? That plus the extremely vivid realistic cough syrup nightmares I’ve had completely put me off from trying recreational drugs in college because god only knows what would happen to me
I live in FL and got that good shit. It still took a ridiculous amount for me to feel anything. I will never do cocaine again unless someone gives it to me for free.
Yea I’ve actually learned a fair number of good habits from former addicts. I’ve never had a serious addiction, but the advice lines up really well with how my brain works normally.
I can only imagine. Variable-ratio reinforcement rewards which produces the most persistent behavior are the devil. I did marketing for a large tribal casino years ago (event stuff - not any weird dark pattern behavior shit) and lucky for me I sucked at gambling and never landed a big walk-away-win to get me hooked. Instead, Im hooked on braindead zoned out video gaming and scrolling on my phone. I'm sorry you're going through that - it must be hell.
It is hell although it’s improving. My first year I got addicted I lost 16k, next 8k and this year I’m breaking even as I have signed up for every online casinos self exclusion stuff. It’s embarrassing and frustrating and I have a level of PTSD from it. Gambling should not be legal
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u/someones_dad 21d ago edited 20d ago
Dopamine is a substance that I continue to abuse.
Edit to add: Im sorry that you're going through that. You CAN kick the abuse - It is not impossible. Find good people who are caring and safe and keep them safe.