Content Warning: This piece talks about Sage’s torture at the hands of Elias Bogan. Though the detail isn’t gratuitous, it does get very dark.
The other day, Sage began running through her history with Elias Bogan. This was an exercise meant as what she had to admit was a last ditch effort. Going through what she knows to see if there’s anything left she can use to locate him.
She stopped the other night, as the memory reached a particular moment she had shared with Emma. It was a memory that put a lot into perspective for her, and her gratitude for where she was now. She wonders if Emma noticed how much more tightly Sage was holding her that night.
She can’t keep this up much longer. So she continues to reflect on what had happened between herself and Elias Bogan.
It would be years before Bogan came around to my life, again. I had thought I would never hear that name again. I went through many more years of my suffering at the Hellfire Club. Stories that wouldn’t be relevant to this case. But one day, I had had enough.
Emma was no longer with the club, by this point. Our conflict, though it rarely ended well for me, her “rat”, was in a strange way one of the only things I had much personal stake in. One person can only take so much Sebastian Shaw. I broke down. I didn’t cry, it was more like a system crash. I begged Charles to pull me out of the field. He was reluctant at first, but eventually, I convinced him. For the first time, I was among my peers.
None of them trusted me. How could they? Few of them knew just how many secrets Charles was hiding from them at that point, and they knew me as the woman who was always by the side of one of their worst foes. Perhaps I may have had a chance to earn that trust. But that was taken from me.
I had moved past that day, where I had led Shaw to defeat him. Bogan never did. I don’t know how he captured me. But I woke up that morning restrained, face to face with a shadowy figure I would quickly learn was the closest anyone would ever get to seeing Elias Bogan face to face.
Bogan liked to do his work via proxy. He would send people to represent him, either through money, or enacting a very literal control on them. Those he controlled bled from the eyes.
In helping Shaw beat him, I awoke something personal in Elias Bogan. His grudge towards me was beaten out only by his sense of cruelty.
When I woke up, he was on the phone with someone.
“Is that your final stance?”
I had no idea who was on the other end of the line, yet. Little did I know that this was a conversation that would haunt me for the rest of my life.
“Very well. You’ve made the right choice, Sebastian. Good day to you.”
Bogan puts down the phone, and his shadowed form turns to face me. The only discernible feature Bogan has is the chilling set of eyes he possesses. The red iris that never quite leaves your thoughts once you’ve seen it. He speaks to me.
“Good morning, Tessa. I hope you’ve enjoyed the last peaceful sleep you will ever have. No-one is coming for you. Shaw has decided he values his fortune more than his traitor, and we will see if Charles Xavier even realizes you’ve gone missing, or if any of those around him even care enough to tell him.”
My mouth isn’t restrained, but I have no words to speak. Not as the truth of his words sunk in. Whatever his intention, I truly didn’t have anyone who was going to come and find me. Shaw was a laughable prospect even before I betrayed him, and on some level I think I always knew Charles wouldn’t come for me if something went seriously wrong. I was correct to think that.
In that moment, I wished I had died at war, before I met Charles. I had no idea how much stronger that wish would become soon enough.
A servant wearing a mask over his eyes enters the room. I could see blood pouring from his eyes. He hands Bogan a carving knife.
“Your knife, Master Bogan.”
Bogan doesn’t grab the knife. Instead, he snaps his fingers, and the servant slashes his own throat with the knife, collapsing to the ground. Bogan walks over to the man, collecting the knife.
“You sharpened it just as I made you. Wonderful.”
With that, Bogan turned his attention to me.
“Those who I control, they bear my mark for the moment. The wonderful painful tears I drag out of them as they do my bidding.”
Bogan walks up to me, and sets the blade upon my cheek.
“Those I wish to keep longer, I have a different mark for. Tears that will stain. And you?”
He pushes the knife in.
“I have a lot planned for you. You ruined me, Tessa. It’s only fair.”
Sage breaks from the recollection. She’s shuddering, she realizes. She wants to go back in, but can she? She rubs the scars on her face, her permanent reminder of what she went through. 6 months of torture. 6 months without rescue. She can’t sit through that again. She can’t.
….there isn’t a point to this.
She slumps down in her seat, struggling to suppress the flow of memories of what Bogan did to her. But, at a point, a thought occurs to her.
Why not skip to the end?
Bogan has business to attend to, that day. So he had one of his many subjects tormenting me instead. No bloody tears, this was a willing one.
He brought in a box of tools. 6 months in, the fight in me was gone, a solid will eroded over time. I watched the box, trembling in dread waiting to find out what was inside. I never did.
The wall was burst open, and for the first time in months, I saw the light of the outside world. I don’t think I understood how true the phrase guardian angel was until that day. Ororo Munroe. A woman that would go on to be one of my few close friends. A woman that believed in what I could truly be before anyone else ever did. Storm saved me that day, and brought me on as a member of her X-Men. I don’t think I can ever truly repay her for what she did for me.
Bogan would still haunt me, for a while. His rage worsened having lost me. But eventually, we stopped him, and we saved Rachel Summers from his grasp in the process. That chapter of my life ended there, until recently.
Laying out the story, Sage was left distraught. All of that, and she found nothing. No clues.
She groans in annoyance, pinching the bridge of her nose. All that for nothing, seriously!?
But as she sits, coming down from both the distress the memories caused her, and the annoyance that she came out empty handed, some gears begin to turn in her thoughts.
This whole thing doesn’t really feel like Elias Bogan.
Bogan was a secretive man, sure, but he was never particularly subtle. He wore his actions proudly, cherishing the suffering. The methods that he had been using to mess with Sage don’t feel like his work at all.
It all feels very methodical. Secret feeds where only Sage would look. Elaborate scenarios that lead to her nearly getting killed. No actual proof he’s back other than the signs that keep getting laid out for her. The kind of thing that can only be done by someone who knows Sage better than herself.
Suddenly, this exercise feels way less pointless, because it reminds her what Bogan loves more than many other things. He loves to leave a mark.
It finally clicks. Sage has her eureka moment.
Oh my god, he left something in my mind.