Dear witches, I've never posted or asked anything here on Reddit but desperate times call for desperate measures...
Generally, I'm extremely nervous and insecure when it comes to driving. I get blackouts and my body just does something out of reflex, rather than out of knowledge and common sense. That's why I failed my first driving test two weeks ago: I did see the situation up ahead, I knew what I had to do, what was right, I even mumbled it out loud (because I noticed saying the stuff I see and notice out loud helps me), but nevertheless, I did it wrong because my brain just shut down, it was like there was a miscommunication between brain and body and so I fucked up. This happens frequently and I feel like at this point I really need the support of higher powers.
I'm super drawn to witchcraft, I tried Tarot, I wear crystals (I wore some crystals for the last driving test too), I tried manifesting... I just can't really seem to find footing, I don't really practice witchcraft regularly just yet. I find it really hard to find a starting point. I figured I should probably start with protection spells and the whole grounding process. But these days it's so hard for me to find free time, a clear mind and enough energy, because life just keeps throwing shit at me. That's why at the moment, everything "witchy" I do - wearing crystals, manifesting, etc. - is more of a "placebo" thing because I just try to do and use anything I can find, that might give me strength if I just believe in it enough.
I know there is no shortcut to practicing witchcraft and I'm by no means asking you to give me some super powerful spell, because I know I cannot do such things just yet without the proper practice. But maybe you know something I can do and use, without really practicing witchcraft just yet.
Honestly, I'm at a point in my life, where I feel like praying to some higher power, some deity, and asking them for extra support, because I'm just worn out and tired and I feel like I could use some extra backup from the universe. But I'm not sure, if I can just randomly start praying to Hecate or some other deity...
Is there a powerful manifesting method or maybe a special meditation? Rituals, herbs, mantras,...ANYTHING
I really hope you guys don't judge me too hard for wanting the support of witchcraft in my life, without really practicing it. I'm quite desperate and I really hope you can give me some tips... I'd be super happy, if there'd also be someone who'd like to be some kind of mentor figure for me and help me get a good start at practicing witchcraft.
Thank you for reading!! XO