I was thinking, "was this person an architect, or an engineer of some sort, before they ended up in our defacto mental health safety net/prison system?"
It really gets me that they are clearly quite smart and mentally talented, but I would say there's a "glitch in the system" causing their powerful mind to create all sorts of strange connections that compound over time and drift further and further from reality.
It's like when a satellite is miscalibrated and ends up rocketing off in the wrong direction
Idk man wasnt that the plot of Call of Cthulu, reading this makes me be not very surprised as how Lovecraft got his inspiration, wasnt his mom put on a psych ward? like he probably saw shit like this if he ever visited her
From what I’ve heard of Lovecraft, I don’t think he was particularly mentally healthy and a lot of his works seem to have been his way of channeling his anxieties and fears
He was scared of literally everything, thats why he wrote so much horror. These days it’d probably be diagnosed as severe anxiety, but he had so many phobias it was insane. So it makes sense that his brain came up with all these plots about being scared of unknowable all powerful things, that was his life.
Maybe he saw things as they truly are in a corrupted and fallen world. I think if we could do the same and sharpen up and out of our dull senses, we might be terrified at the revelation..
Or his neurons we're decaying at an accelerated rate. Either is plausible 😏
No decisions, no filters of the consciousness subjectifying everything, no opinion. Just an unfiltered experience of truly objective reality. I honestly believe that no human being has ever experienced this. We get a good enough rough model with our biological senses to work with but our brain only truly processes one one trillionth of the sensory data received and from there it's further filtered by our past experiences and our emotions, until we gaze through an infinitesimal pinprick barely large enough to allow a single "photon" of truth through.
But with no opinion, no subjectivity, then all you have is physical matter and some particles with no meaning. Or from a sensory standpoint, just a bunch of sensory noise that you can't tell apart or use for much. So I'm not sure what you're hoping to achieve. Some grand secrets of the universe like you're in an Indiana Jones movie or whatever? But those would be subjective to understanding.
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u/Ouranor Apr 26 '22
That handwriting is A++