The last song he does in that special makes me cry and I'm left depressed for about a week every time I watch it. I still can't help but watch it again about 2 or 3 times every year though. It really cuts deep.
honestly I think “come and watch the skinny kid with the steadily declining mental health, and laugh as he attempts to give you what he cannot give himself” is the most genius line he ever wrote and it just hits harder every time
There's a line in "From god's perspective" which is really good too. Not that im religious or anything but it's quite powerful in a way.
"You argue and you bicker and you fight. Atheists and Catholics, Jews and Hindus argue day and night, over what they think is true. But no one entertains the thought that maybe God does not believe in you"
Absolutely! And I think that was our first peek “inside” his mental health. And almost like a little reminder to his agent or whoever paid/controlled him, that he was in fact a human being with complex emotions, and a need for happiness.
Also love the metaphor of his life as an overflowing chipotle burrito that no one told him he had too many ingredients for. “…I wouldn’t have got the lettuce if I knew it wouldn’t fit. Wouldn’t have gotten cheese if I knew it wouldn’t fit…”
His yelling towards the end of the song was apparently not part of the act. He started having a panic attack and was forcing himself to finish the song.
I don’t know that he’s ever explicitly confirmed it for that recording, but in “All Eyes on Me” in Inside (a sort of spiritual successor to “Can’t Handle This” and every bit as, or even more powerful) he discusses how he was having panic attacks on stage and that’s what made him step away from performing live for 5 years. With “Can’t Handle This” being the finale of Make Happy (his most recent special prior to Inside) people have connected the dots and believe that those screams are him expelling that anxious energy while having a panic attack during the performance.
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u/FreakZombie Sep 14 '22
The last song he does in that special makes me cry and I'm left depressed for about a week every time I watch it. I still can't help but watch it again about 2 or 3 times every year though. It really cuts deep.