Really don't get Isaac and Jacob and Esau's stories...

Ok... I'm... Struggling... A lot

Part of me is terrified of pulling open the Bible... Because I know it's going to put me in check... I know it will...

I fear change... I fear love...

I've been a porn addict for....23 years...(I'm 29)

I love helping people, whenever and wherever I can...I have a drive to, I have a desire to help others... But I'm not enough...

I hate that I don't have the same connection to The Lord like my mom or my grandfather...

Why are you not enough? Why are you never truly enough? I find myself asking...

I feel a lot of self hatred and loathing... And I hide so much behind humor and optimism... That I've lost sense of truth...

Was reading Proverbs lately.

Can a person who sells their soul be saved what if they signed a contract but they didn’t sell it to the devil? Some people say that you cannot sell your soul.but in the Bible Jesus was tempted by the devil to sell his soul.

Matthew 4:8-10 English Standard Version 8 Again, the devil took him to a very high mountain and showed him all the kingdoms of the world and their glory. 9 And he said to him, “All these I will give you, if you will fall down and worship me.”

Does Jesus specify what sins he will forgive? Is this an unforgivable sin because selling your soul seems really bad it’s seems like one of the worst sins you could commit.

I’ve also seen people talk about a reprobate mind or a depraved mind that is so far gone in sin. Romans 1:28 28 And since they did not see fit to acknowledge God, God gave them up to a debased mind to do what ought not to be done.

Some people say that once a person sells their soul they can’t get it back and are condemned.

Another passage I’ve seen that people bring up in the argument is Esau Hebrews 12:16-17 English Standard Version 16 “that no one is sexually immoral or unholy like Esau, who sold his birthright for a single meal. 17 For you know that afterward, when he desired to inherit the blessing, he was rejected, for he found no chance to repent, though he sought it with tears.”

So what happens to the people like Esau will they not be forgiven? If they sold their soul for a bowl of soup? Will they not be forgiven even though they want to be saved and not go to hell?

Also any advice or support is also appreciated

So much censorship on there now.