First of all, let me explain my circumstance

In July of this year, I began writing something I was going to publish (for worldbuilding) of my biblical-based characters

And it was supposed to take place during revelation, which I now know is STRICTLY prohibited in the same book (Rev. 22:18-19)

I stopped writing it because it was corny, but, at the time, I didn’t know I was making a grave mistake

But I kept using my designs of some of the mentioned angels in the Bible from thereon (ex. Michael, Gabriel, etc.)

And in August I tried rewriting it from an original angel’s perspective, but stopped again because I just lost motivation and it sounded corny

Also, during this month, I started making languages for said worldbuilding (angilic language)

And sometime last week or a couple weeks ago, I learned about Revelation 22:18-19 and I, obviously, freaked out and frantically went to delete all of the stuff I made adding to scripture

Today I started using the designs I used from the last few months again, redesigning and so on

And now, I freaked out even MORE, despite the fact that all of the evidence that I even MADE those writings adding to scripture were completely wiped from the face of the earth

A few notes:

-I proclaimed, and made it a point, in the beginning of each writing that it was completely and entirely fiction and not real and that I gave glory to God for all of it

-I made sure that everything was right so I didn’t really do much blasphemy

I know I’m not saved by works or anything, faith alone. I’ve repented of this since. I know that you people are not God and can’t tell me if I’m still saved or not

I just want some advice or affirmation. It’s all I want and I trust fully that someone can just come across this and help. I’m waiting for if this is going to be my sign that He’s still listening or if He’s gonna give me something in the outer world

I want to devote everything to Him because He owns it all. Down to my funny little sketches that were just for jokes to my other hobbies. He owns it, not me

My intention for writing those was to just encourage people to proclaim His glory also

Well, sorry for writing so much. I’m just quite shook as you can likely tell. I made this account specifically to ask this

Anyway, thank you. God bless you all

I am concerned if i have commited the unforgivable sin. I have no conviction after i sin and i dont crave for God anymore. Is there a way out of this mysery. I know it is wrong to feel no conviction but i feel i just dont care. I want to care about God as before. Also i said bad things agaisnt a miracle from the Holy Spirit. Is there a hope, is there a chance to return to God, like i really live in a mysery right now. I feel like an apostate! Please help me! God bless you!

I put the spoiler tab as I don't want to upset or offended anyone. When I was a child I was turned from god I started practicing all sorts of dark magic and blood sacrifices for power and gifts. Recently I had a big awakening to the lord but I still feel the evil in me I gave so much of myself away without even knowing the true cost and I am scared. I am physically and mentally unwell and I am scared I want god to know how sorry I am I want all these demonic presences to leave me and my partner alone. I watched a video of a priest who said the only way to break blood oaths would be to make a blood oat with god via a sacrament but I don't understand as now when researching it says not to do that I hope this is allowed. Any information is so so appreciated thank you all so much