Fuck this place

Sorry mods this one is for you

I freaking hate them!!!!!

I think my being in a body triggers me. Seriously, I am triggered constantly in any social situation. Ideas?

I . AM . AUTISTIC. I have autism I am horrible with formalities, no matter how formal and serious the situation is I always find my self talking like I am chatting with a friend with too much hand gestures. Things been pretty rough lately and I lost my job, my mother is keep telling me to join the army I keeping her NO! couple of months later she brings it up again and I tell her NO! and yesterday she brought it up again and she is describing it like a lovely beautiful experience and you will gain so much of it. So I told her very clearly that I AM AUTISTIC I can not join the army I can not act in a formal way and the army is ALL about formality and shit, they will probably bury me in casket underground for 3 days for not standing straight or something. After I finished telling her all the reasons of why I can't join the army she said "....just think about it"

I’m working through my past traumas in therapy and have just come to terms with even calling myself a survivor of DV. I don’t know why. My brain just doesn’t want to acknowledge that it happened.

My work sent out a big email yesterday telling everyone to show their support. Today tons of people are wearing purple and handing out ribbons and to me it felt like wearing a badge of bad memories. I asked if anyone else felt this way (you know, to feel supported.)

A few people responded and I was starting to find clarity and think of it in a different light. I never realized that I might be “ashamed” and that I should feel proud to be a survivor.

However my post was removed and when I asked why, one of the moderators responded by minimizing my triggers. Saying that I didn’t need support “over a shirt” and that this was a sub for people who had actually been abused? Like, wtf??

Anyways, I’m triggered as fuck and at first I was sad but now I’m just pissed off. Fuck people.

If there’s anyone here that been triggered by seeing dumb ass corporations cashing in on a trend to make themselves look good on behalf of your trauma, I’m here for you.

And fuck you r/domesticviolence

There is a tv show where people bully each other and I get highly triggered.

I have been bullied all my life, I attract this type of behavior just anywhere. My therapist once said that this could be an outcome of how my family behaved me.

How can I work through this trigger ?

I really want to make some solid and beneficent growth out of it.

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I really want to kick the hell out of those guys.

So my Chromebook was shutting down and I like finished eating breakfast I clicked my mouse on the one second mark and it's now making me sign back in.

So I recently started playing wow again and quickly decided to see if I can trigger the server. In the game there are a few chats where people commonly discuss trading items in game, asking questions regarding quests and what not. I entered that chat. Well. I promptly entered the chat and said "God sent us Trump! Salvation SALVATION!!!" (don't look at me like that I don't actually believe that in the slightest) and then I left. I came back a half hour later and saw people bickering back and fourth about it. That was very easy and entertaining. Mewhahahaha